Basically i went up the amphetamine ladder from snorting ritalins in the bathroom at highschool to stealing my cousins dex, long story short I was into meth for a 1-2 month period it never got extremely bad but It was pretty much the only thing i looked forward to. With people noticing and stuff i got off of it,
I will tell you that i have a perscription for dexedrine, i was diagnosed with "ADHD" but to me it is more like ever since i had a strong experience with DOB + E Pills + Powerful weed, I have nver been the same, I can't focus , mad derealization/dp. So that is why I said i have adhd, and i was suprised when the doctor gave me Dexedrine. It started at one and now somehow i get 9 a day, ( 2 seperate doses 10mg Spansules ),
I have a lot of stresses in my life and due to all this hyperstimulation, i am really looking for more out of life than the average person and have commited myself to mainly Internet Marketing with hopes of growing some decent capital and getting into some real business, the downside is though, IT IS INCREDIBLY BORING.. and if i don't take my dex i feel like doing nothing at all! Even a while ago i wasn't looking for focus out of my medication just a euphoric uppity high and it ended up to me blowing 400 nonometh . I don't wanna go back there, but I really just don't know what to do, should i stick to taking a lower dose of dex to remind myself it is for adhd purposes and not a "high" .. Should i switch to Straterra? Concerta/ritalin already a big no ( deathly zombie feeling ) .
The main reason this is so bad is because I don't eat enough, vasoconstriction with lack of movement, and inevitable moments of zoned out bad posture, the fact I don't even bother to socialize because all my friends smoke weed and I am all for being at top-brain-functioing conditions. The worst part is probably the anhendonia though, i feel if i didn't have dexedrine I probably would be in a rehab center or sit in my bed eating ice cream and playing video games all day..
For the record im on .5kpin Morning and Evening dose, and 75mg seroquel at night, Any suggestions??
I will tell you that i have a perscription for dexedrine, i was diagnosed with "ADHD" but to me it is more like ever since i had a strong experience with DOB + E Pills + Powerful weed, I have nver been the same, I can't focus , mad derealization/dp. So that is why I said i have adhd, and i was suprised when the doctor gave me Dexedrine. It started at one and now somehow i get 9 a day, ( 2 seperate doses 10mg Spansules ),
I have a lot of stresses in my life and due to all this hyperstimulation, i am really looking for more out of life than the average person and have commited myself to mainly Internet Marketing with hopes of growing some decent capital and getting into some real business, the downside is though, IT IS INCREDIBLY BORING.. and if i don't take my dex i feel like doing nothing at all! Even a while ago i wasn't looking for focus out of my medication just a euphoric uppity high and it ended up to me blowing 400 nonometh . I don't wanna go back there, but I really just don't know what to do, should i stick to taking a lower dose of dex to remind myself it is for adhd purposes and not a "high" .. Should i switch to Straterra? Concerta/ritalin already a big no ( deathly zombie feeling ) .
The main reason this is so bad is because I don't eat enough, vasoconstriction with lack of movement, and inevitable moments of zoned out bad posture, the fact I don't even bother to socialize because all my friends smoke weed and I am all for being at top-brain-functioing conditions. The worst part is probably the anhendonia though, i feel if i didn't have dexedrine I probably would be in a rehab center or sit in my bed eating ice cream and playing video games all day..
For the record im on .5kpin Morning and Evening dose, and 75mg seroquel at night, Any suggestions??