people and...
it ticks me off that i have been waiting to hear from this clinic to gather some psych treatment and have a PCP all in one spot, but when the damn paper work finally show up it has a page included with a statement requiring a sig. before they will see me; saying that i agree to take UA's(oh well) and they do not prescribe narcotics or controlled substances of any kind. period.
lol
i have been waiting a good little while for these bastards to respond with this, but yeah right, i have what they are now guessing is two severe chronic pain conditions, one of which is literally eating my ligaments, joint tissue, corroding my pelvis and spine and every bone in my damn body, and i just might go a head and break down and ask for some opioids, for crying out loud!
i want to avoid using opioids as a primary treatment for my d/o, because they wouldnt actually work, and i need a certain biological immuno suppressant to stop this wrecking my body. but even those have started to stop working, and just the thought makes my heart twist, its either relief from this pain or a mercy kill for sure.
i take medical marijuana for the pain which actually address's it by lowering my WBC's thus fighting severe inflammation, making me eat which can be a challenge, and i dont need to explain because it has helped like nothing else, besides Humira, for 12 or more years. i also take a hefty dose of clonazepam because of the reactions i had to the last 3 neuroleptics and ssri's i tried last time, like a trusting sport. so they would either drop me instantly or try and talk me off my current meds, and treat me like a seeker right off the bat.
now its more time trying to find a more local PCP and psych. im so so lucky i can look and obtain via the state, wish i didnt neeed to but, i neeed some serious fucking medical attention, this is a joke and a waste of time, neither of which i have much tolerance for in this arena of my life.
thats my 2 spits.
more?