I had been using kratom for years and was not feeling it that well anymore and asked the guy at the shop where I’d get it what the best selling stuff was and he gave me a red bottle of Zaza and I loved it. It didn’t take very much and worked great. I didn’t even realize that it wasn’t kratom till I opened up the capsules to try dumping the powder for a faster effect. That’s when I tasted it and read the bottle. Now I could easily go through basically as much as I have in a day. 4 bottles easy but I have gotten down to 2 with difficulty. It snuck up quick. I’m waiting on a 25g powder order from a better looking supplier online. I feel kinda silly with such a habit after being off dope for 3 years. I used kratom to get off the dope and never really got sick but I can tell by how I feel after a few hours that this could be different. I’m unfortunately pretty horrible at restraining myself from taking 2, then 2 more, then fuck it 5, then I’m good for a bit, then fuck it what will 10 do. It’s the nature of the beast for me. I’m older (47) and since I turned 40, it’s like my ability to quit things is gone. I used to say I was a non smoker that smokes occasionally but now I just smoke. Same with drugs, if I let myself near them, I will consume them till they are gone under the guise of getting rid of them so they don’t tempt me. Then I just cave quickly and get more. I’m ok with that as long as I at least feel like I’m choosing to do it. Running from a runny nose, kicking my legs and twitching doesn’t feel like a choice anymore. More like management. And I can even deal with that to a point but with dope, I knew I could get away from it without withdrawal with a couple subs and some kratom. I’m new to this stuff though and I need an exit strategy that won’t have me looking all strung. It’s just not an option for me anymore. I’m a good 20 years off of any real dope habit aside from a brief lapse a few years back. No one who knows me would ever guess that I have done the things that I have. I’m not a believer in getting honest with everyone who loves you, that’s for kids. Sorry but I’ve tried it all and my way has the best results for me historically so I’ll manage. It’s the dependency part that gets me. I don’t like feeling out of control.