Lets say I'm a regular heavy user. Of pretty much everything common and popular, plus a few less popular favourites. I don't slam speedballs in the morning or anything like that, but if you found me at 4am on a Tuesday on coke, weed, benzos, opiates, antihistamines and booze (currently the situation...) it wouldn't be abnormal. I do eat healthy and look after my body and mind in many other ways.
So... I've had a few things happen in my life I can't explain. Not just ODs or bad trips. Weird stuff. All recent. The first was what I guess is a panic attack - I do have an anxiety disorder but never thought it was that bad - I could just walk in public but not talk to people and could hardly breathe and had to go lie down for an hour, eat Valium like it was sweets, then back to normal in three hours. Not so bad... but...
The next one was at home - very ordinary situation - no hard drugs just slightly stoned on a weekday doing some work. Had an arguement with my girlfreind and she stormed out. I stressed, paced around, then had this sudden feeling my heart had stopped... yea stopped... I felt for my pulse in three places and found nothing... tried to jog on the spot to get my heart going... nothing... imaginary? Impossible surely... I tried to call for help but no voice came out of my mouth... passed out on the floor. Woke up ten minutes later and felt absolutely fine and sober as a brick. Never told anyone.
The third thing is even more worrying... (unless you're a doc and think there's something wrong with my heart based on the second incident! In which case tell me! Other docs say it's okay based on scans/tests) ... anyway I was on my way home one morning - after getting drunk and stoned and coked up the night before - then suddenly I felt... wrong... not panic but... almost... insanity... do you know what I mean? I kinda knew I was at a train station but if you'd asked me what a train was I couldn't have answered. It took me 5 minutes to think of the words to use to buy a fucking ticket. It took me 15 minutes to say goodbye to my friends because I had no comprehension of other humans and what one might say to them. What they must think of me... It was like a trip - a complete change in my perception of the world - like if I'd had too much 2C-I or unknown shrooms and it'd all gone wrong or something... but that wasn't the case...
Is this shit something to be worried about? Am I going mad? If so, that's cool, just tell me - I'll get a t-shirt which explains it
... yea... but seriously though...
- Atheus
So... I've had a few things happen in my life I can't explain. Not just ODs or bad trips. Weird stuff. All recent. The first was what I guess is a panic attack - I do have an anxiety disorder but never thought it was that bad - I could just walk in public but not talk to people and could hardly breathe and had to go lie down for an hour, eat Valium like it was sweets, then back to normal in three hours. Not so bad... but...
The next one was at home - very ordinary situation - no hard drugs just slightly stoned on a weekday doing some work. Had an arguement with my girlfreind and she stormed out. I stressed, paced around, then had this sudden feeling my heart had stopped... yea stopped... I felt for my pulse in three places and found nothing... tried to jog on the spot to get my heart going... nothing... imaginary? Impossible surely... I tried to call for help but no voice came out of my mouth... passed out on the floor. Woke up ten minutes later and felt absolutely fine and sober as a brick. Never told anyone.
The third thing is even more worrying... (unless you're a doc and think there's something wrong with my heart based on the second incident! In which case tell me! Other docs say it's okay based on scans/tests) ... anyway I was on my way home one morning - after getting drunk and stoned and coked up the night before - then suddenly I felt... wrong... not panic but... almost... insanity... do you know what I mean? I kinda knew I was at a train station but if you'd asked me what a train was I couldn't have answered. It took me 5 minutes to think of the words to use to buy a fucking ticket. It took me 15 minutes to say goodbye to my friends because I had no comprehension of other humans and what one might say to them. What they must think of me... It was like a trip - a complete change in my perception of the world - like if I'd had too much 2C-I or unknown shrooms and it'd all gone wrong or something... but that wasn't the case...
Is this shit something to be worried about? Am I going mad? If so, that's cool, just tell me - I'll get a t-shirt which explains it
... yea... but seriously though...- Atheus
