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Psycho.nova

Psycho.nova

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Where is the change. I lose sleep over how i don't speak. But i dance to how i love music. Always behind closed doors, i do my best work. Writing creatively and freely. I read the most interesting things, and share them with the ppl i think will appreciate them. But my family suffers me. I do my best to 'lighten' each one of them, the dynamic is just so god damn much. If i would just speak..............

I never want to step on anybody's toes or offend anyone. I could go for a psychedelic blast right about now, but i know that comes later. After i sort this shit out with sobriety. Give us a fucking break. Is all life suffering. I mean, bare with me, i felt more "ecstatic' when I wasn't taking life seriously.... But i was drowning in illusions. Straightening and steeling my mind is tearing my heart.

Any thoughts?
 
Your post is a little difficult to read, could you please edit it a little to make it clearer? You would get more answers I think :)
 
Psycho.nova said:
Where is the change. I lose sleep over how i don't speak. But i dance to how i love music. Always behind closed doors, i do my best work. Writing creatively and freely. I read the most interesting things, and share them with the ppl i think will appreciate them. But my family suffers me. I do my best to 'lighten' each one of them, the dynamic is just so god damn much. If i would just speak..............

I never want to step on anybody's toes or offend anyone. I could go for a psychedelic blast right about now, but i know that comes later. After i sort this shit out with sobriety. Give us a fucking break. Is all life suffering. I mean, bare with me, i felt more "ecstatic' when I wasn't taking life seriously.... But i was drowning in illusions. Straightening and steeling my mind is tearing my heart.

Any thoughts?
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Exactly how much Xanax did you take?
 
The only simple thing I could say to that, is that life has generally more good times than bad. When it's bad it's usually really bad, when it's good you probably don't realise it. You will find your slot in life's rich tapestry. Good luck.
 
I think he's saying he's trying to communicate with his family without the aid of psychedelics? And/or he's trying to relearn how to function sober and struggling? I'm not completely sure, either.
 
OP, I asked you to edit your first post so that we could understand you more clearly but you didn't, and as you can see this isn't proving very helpful. I'm going to close this, PM me if you have any questions of if you'd like it re-opened (provided you'll explain the situation please!) :)
 
have you been taking lots of mushrooms? http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/threads/665321-Daily-experimentation-with-psilocybin

this is the kind of tripped out talk that comes from too much psychedelics. sounds like you give too much of a shit.

if you dont like how your family is then talk to them or move out and get a job/place of your own. one thing though stop taking so much psychedelics because, you can trust me as i've been there, it can trigger psychosis
 
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