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What song fits your current mood? vs Unashamed Desire

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"Zombie" - The Pretty Reckless
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IpUIGf_Z13o&feature=related

Evanescence - Secret Door

Lyrics:
Turn out the lights
Feed the fire till my soul breaks free
My heart is high as the waves above me
Don't need to understand
Too lost to lose
Don't fight my tears, cause they feel so good...
And I, I'll remember how to fly
Unlock the heavens in my mind
Follow my love back through the same secret door
Look past the end
It's a dream, as it's always been
All life lives on if we've ever loved it
And I, I'll remember how to fly
Unlock the heavens in my mind
Follow my love back through the same secret door
And I, I'll remember how to fly
Unlock the heavens in my mind
Follow my love back through the same secret door.
 
Fiona Apple, famous singer/songwriter, was raped outside of her mother's apartment at the age of twelve. For years after her rape she would check her closets to make sure no one was hiding in the house and would be nervous around older men. And she still continues to have bad, violent dreams. During her teens and the months she spent making her album, Tidal, she suffered with an eating disorder. Frustrated at the misunderstanding by the media of her eating disorder she attempted to explain it in a 1998 Rolling Stone interview, "I definitely had an eating disorder. What was really frustrating for me was that everyone though I was anorexic, and I wasn't. I was really depressed and self-loathing. For me, it wasn't about being thin, it was about getting rid of the bait attached to my body. A lot of it came from the self-loathing that came from being raped at the point of developing my voluptuousness. I just thought that if you had a body and if you had anything on you that would be grabbed, it would be grabbed. So I did purposely get rid of it." As a result of her eating disorder Fiona became extremely thin but the media wrote off her thinness as an attempt to "fit in." After her "Criminal" video from her album, "Tidal," came out she began gaining weight on purpose. She wanted to show the world that she didn't care about being thin. In 1998 she said, "I mean, my plan is to gain enough weight that I can really be considered voluptuous, and do my 'First Taste' video. And I am preparing myself for what is going to happen. Because soon they will be saying that I'm fat. And it will hurt me."

When Fiona read her first bad review for Tidal she began scratching her left wrist with the fingernails of her right hand. She scratched all the way up her arm, there are still some dark patches on her wrists, where she dug the deepest. Fiona said, "I have a little bit of a problem with that. It's a common thing." When asked if it made her feel better she simply replied, "It just makes you feel." Fiona also sometimes bites her lips as hard as she can, sometimes until they bleed. "And it'll be bleeding, and I can't stop, because it almost feels so good when I bite my lip." Trying to explain her actions she said, "It was never, like, 'I am going to hurt myself and put myself in the hospital.' ...It is that I am going to give myself the pain that I need to feel to put the punctuation on this shit that's going inside."

Fiona would get frustrated and sad when she feel that people think she's "crazy." She says, "The most annoying thing for me to hear about myself is that I'm trying to make people have a pity party for me. Everything that I've gone through has been dramatized by the people who've written about it, not by me. I'm just saying, 'This happened to me, this happened to a lot of people.' Why should I hide shit? Why does that give people a bad opinion of me? It's a reality. A lot of people do it. Courtney Love pulled me aside at a party and showed me her marks."

Fiona Apple has become a happier and more confident individual since she talked so frankly about her past self-injury and eating disorder to Rolling Stone. Articles in several magazines and newspapers, including The Washington Post and USA Today, mention different new aspects of Fiona, such as her new take on life, a healthy weight gain and a new-found confidence in herself and her music. In a USA Today interview she said still gets upset when she reads a particularly bad article about herself or review of her music but does not mention any further self-injurious behavior as a result.

I love that she is still working her life for her through the pain, and self loathing. It is a hard process at times. I do love this song writer and all her talent. <3
 
I have to say i really hate soft music at the best of times, but im digin this shit "Bruno mars" asshole with his song "count on me" it kinda fits what my gf is puttin up with and vice versa.
 
Now that is an awesome choice. This song is so perfect in the right way to me too. I love the heartbeat. =D
I am so going to clean to this tomorrow lol. <3
 
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