what should i do?

[E-girl]

like so many before,
he said "I'm sorry."
and now i'm stuck at that awful crossroads...
trying to decide between the path of forgiveness,
and the path that leads away from him.
"i'm sorry"
its such a short sentence
it seems like not enough to fix anything...
maybe to fix a broken vase,
or a broken lamp...
but a broken heart?
can i really forgive this person?
i'd like to think i can.
i miss him so...
but i've been here.. at this very spot,
in the past
and i've learned that saying "i'm sorry"
sometimes doesnt mean shit.
sometimes it means a quick fix...
like gluing together something that got smashed...
you know its only a matter of time before someone will come along,
and touch it in the wrong way,
and the glue will give.
the pieces will fall apart again.
cuz, they just dont make glue that strong...
i dont know what to do.
my cursor blinks,
word after word scrolls across my empty page,
and is just as quickly erased.
it used to be so easy to tell you my thoughts,
but not anymore.
my words seem so foolish, so childish.
i'm always worried about what you will think of them,
of if you'll think of them at all...
"i'm sorry."
are you really?
i would like to believe you.
but i cannot rely on my best judgement anymore.
i have this way of always doing the wrong thing.
so i shall let someone else decide...
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what should i do?
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E-girl
IM: tiggersgurl2067
"...there are 2 paths, you can go back, but in the long run... there's still time to change the road you're on..."

 

[fizzygirl]

its always a difficult thought
there are some of us
that have found it easier,
more convenient in life to refuse
second chances, time to try again, or an opportunity to right the wrong that we felt was commited against us
do we ever miss out on beautiful things? quite possibly, but then we never have to wonder when they will cause us to feel things that we'd rather not feel again

just my thoughts
~~brooke~~

 

[Charlie Brown]

Hey egirl
sometimes forgiveness is all it takes to make things better.
Remember the first time you ever met, we should forgive the ones we love

and not hate them, somethings you have to learn it the hard way. sometimes better to move on, do what you think is right and what makes you happy SLOWLY =)
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sex is the key to the soul~

 

[Mellabopper]

i've been at that crossroads so many times...
they say i'm sorry and think things can just go back to normal
but those two (and a half) words aren't always enough to heal the pain caused by their previous actions.
i dunno what to tell you... i think second chances are always good... but when it comes down to third, fourth, or even tenth chances it might be stretching it...
::hugs::
Mella

 

[E-girl]

thanks, as always, for the advice. but i'm finding that this one has no straight answer.
its just so hard to tell how "sorry" this person is by some words on a computer screen. what's behind the words? i dont know.
i think i'm just gonna wait a little longer and see if the answer comes to me.
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E-girl
IM: tiggersgurl2067
"...there are 2 paths, you can go back, but in the long run... there's still time to change the road you're on..."