sunEdltye
Ex-Bluelighter
I started off being nice,
Tried that game but it didnt work.
Girls seemed to want something different,
So I started to be a jerk.
Once I was a jerk,
I soon was hated.
Hate mail, cursing,
"Evan your so jaded!"
I tried to be a little bit more nice,
I gave it a shot more than twice.
Everything I said didnt come out right,
So I changed back almost overnight!
It's hard for me now to go a day,
Without pissing someone off.
Maybe I need a form letter,
Of apologies to send off.
Some people could care less,
Others could care lesser.
Most get pushed away,
While the rest are memories in my dresser.
This hating thing just isnt for me,
This new job has to much insanity.
I need to break the habit I started,
Watch my soul and devil be dearly departed.
But what next is there for me?
I tried everything under the galaxy.
Being nice got me no where,
While being an asshole was unfair.
Why can some people do it?
While I get shit flying at me.
Why do some people love them?
While I was still lonely.
Why was I nice to begin?
Lived a life with modest sin.
Why did I put up with so much?
To be a doormat rarely touched.
What next on my list of persons?
An Evan who is a little uncertain?
Sexy and smart, Cunning and rude?
Rarely laughed at and seldom boo'd?
I cant predict my future of self.
Only I hope it comes with less doubt.
Maybe a remodel is what needs to be done,
Before I find out let me rid of this gun.
Evan
Tried that game but it didnt work.
Girls seemed to want something different,
So I started to be a jerk.
Once I was a jerk,
I soon was hated.
Hate mail, cursing,
"Evan your so jaded!"
I tried to be a little bit more nice,
I gave it a shot more than twice.
Everything I said didnt come out right,
So I changed back almost overnight!
It's hard for me now to go a day,
Without pissing someone off.
Maybe I need a form letter,
Of apologies to send off.
Some people could care less,
Others could care lesser.
Most get pushed away,
While the rest are memories in my dresser.
This hating thing just isnt for me,
This new job has to much insanity.
I need to break the habit I started,
Watch my soul and devil be dearly departed.
But what next is there for me?
I tried everything under the galaxy.
Being nice got me no where,
While being an asshole was unfair.
Why can some people do it?
While I get shit flying at me.
Why do some people love them?
While I was still lonely.
Why was I nice to begin?
Lived a life with modest sin.
Why did I put up with so much?
To be a doormat rarely touched.
What next on my list of persons?
An Evan who is a little uncertain?
Sexy and smart, Cunning and rude?
Rarely laughed at and seldom boo'd?
I cant predict my future of self.
Only I hope it comes with less doubt.
Maybe a remodel is what needs to be done,
Before I find out let me rid of this gun.
Evan
