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I can’t fully articulate what exactly I want to say about this yet.. but I actually really like this question.
For now, I’ll say this.
During the many times in my life where I have felt completely hopeless, empty, full of rage, or knocking on death’s door (literally).. I always seemed to find strength I didn’t know I had in me. The kind of strength you find when you’re put in one of the “give up or give in” situations.
Where did it come from?
I’m not sure.
Sometimes I feel like it’s my guardian angels. Sometimes I feel like it’s “God” (not the god I was forced into knowing as a child/teen, but a God that makes sense to me). Sometimes I feel like it’s the ocean air. Sometimes I have no explanation.
Either way. I’m always grateful.. even if I don’t always seem like it.
I don’t think I need to label it, personally.
I’m okay with not knowing.
The “feeling” is far more important to me.

For now, I’ll say this.
During the many times in my life where I have felt completely hopeless, empty, full of rage, or knocking on death’s door (literally).. I always seemed to find strength I didn’t know I had in me. The kind of strength you find when you’re put in one of the “give up or give in” situations.
Where did it come from?
I’m not sure.
Sometimes I feel like it’s my guardian angels. Sometimes I feel like it’s “God” (not the god I was forced into knowing as a child/teen, but a God that makes sense to me). Sometimes I feel like it’s the ocean air. Sometimes I have no explanation.
Either way. I’m always grateful.. even if I don’t always seem like it.
I don’t think I need to label it, personally.
I’m okay with not knowing.
The “feeling” is far more important to me.
