Simple question, I'm looking to see how people began their IV drug use.
I've never done it personally and I have no plans to try. I haven't even used any drugs that would be injectable.
I'm simply curious and want to know how you guys got into it.
So basically:
What drugs do you bang?
How long have you been injecting?
What made you first choose to poke?
Was it a frightening/daunting concept at first?
Did you start with that ROA or did you use a different method before turning to the needle?
And how do other ROAs compare afterwards?
I appreciate anyone who is willing to share their experiences
My story is a lot more fucked up than most, ok simple parts first...
In order of questions.
1 heroin and very rarely methamphetamine.
2 At least 7 years, I'm not sure.
3 Sorta, see later answer
4 I started with pills and snorting.
5 Love the needle most of all by far.
As for why, well a lot of it like most was in search for a better high after tolerance increased, but I've had a weird relationship with needles most of my life.
When I was very young, some very bad shit happened to me, one incident involved me being held down and injected with drugs against my will.
I had, and I guess still have, ptsd ever since as a result of the shit that happened to me. And part of that was an obsession with various aspects of what happened to me, rape, needles, being drugged against your will, etc. Even though my obsession involved me reading about people who'd experienced similar shit and feeling this utter black cold feeling of terror, I felt compelled to keep reading. Apparently such compulsions are common in trauma as I'd eventually find out, Anyway, I think a small part of my choice to use the needle was to try and feel in control of the weapon that was once used against me. Though I didn't consciously think it at the time. It wasn't the main thing, but it is the case that I was utterly terrified to the point of panic at the sight of needles and other shit that reminded me of what happened to me for my whole life from about 8-12 when it happened to me to becoming an Iv heroin addict in my teens.
Before that never in a billion years would I have thought I'd wind up an IV heroin addict.
I know it's fucked up, Its still something I don't talk about much or in detail. But I think it played a part. Beyond my addiction being a coping mechanism for what happened to me. And since it's the one part of all the shit that happened to me as a kid I've found almost impossible to find other people who went through something similar, I thought I'd share it.