Well, I suppose i better take another bump first.
There we go.
*Cough*
So this is the first of potentially many blogs of mine here on BL. i wouldn't expect too much, that way you won't be disappointed, I guess. I've come a long way in my addictions, from the famed honeymoon phases, for each respective substance, as well as the other fun bits that we all learn to live with, and for the lucky ones, learn to live without. Right now, I'm somewhere on the spectrum, and I've accepted that. It's those around me that have to have a reality check, because this is only going to be done at my pace. Jarsh reality, but it's something that cannot be escaped. Not if you so happen to be the one living this specific chain of events.
Forgive me if I lose myself in my own bullshit while writing this. I'm just not so certain of the meaning of all this.
The important thing that I seem to be skirting around, not paying much attention to is the fact that i have had what could be known as a 'lapse' better judgement; White Fairy, thou hath trickest me once again. And this time, I fought for you, lauched volley after volley of logical argument for easily an hour to the end of me obtaining another five hundred milligrams, a mere drop in the six thousand dollar pool of deception you will inevitably join. Hah, upon weighing, a mere three hundred milligrams. Three-twenty, tops.
A year and possibly more abstaining cannot be lost.
So it is they say, that one must not lament the number of days one has remained free when times of hardship come to pass for they are proof of hope in its most undeniable form.
At least, these are the things I keep telling myself.
Words of Wisdom, Anyone?
There we go.
*Cough*
So this is the first of potentially many blogs of mine here on BL. i wouldn't expect too much, that way you won't be disappointed, I guess. I've come a long way in my addictions, from the famed honeymoon phases, for each respective substance, as well as the other fun bits that we all learn to live with, and for the lucky ones, learn to live without. Right now, I'm somewhere on the spectrum, and I've accepted that. It's those around me that have to have a reality check, because this is only going to be done at my pace. Jarsh reality, but it's something that cannot be escaped. Not if you so happen to be the one living this specific chain of events.
Forgive me if I lose myself in my own bullshit while writing this. I'm just not so certain of the meaning of all this.
The important thing that I seem to be skirting around, not paying much attention to is the fact that i have had what could be known as a 'lapse' better judgement; White Fairy, thou hath trickest me once again. And this time, I fought for you, lauched volley after volley of logical argument for easily an hour to the end of me obtaining another five hundred milligrams, a mere drop in the six thousand dollar pool of deception you will inevitably join. Hah, upon weighing, a mere three hundred milligrams. Three-twenty, tops.
A year and possibly more abstaining cannot be lost.
So it is they say, that one must not lament the number of days one has remained free when times of hardship come to pass for they are proof of hope in its most undeniable form.
At least, these are the things I keep telling myself.
Words of Wisdom, Anyone?