the good the bad and the ugly
I'm 31 from Pittsburgh, Pa usa.. my first opiate was an original oc80. I did oxycontin about four times before i stuck a needle in my a arm and shot a wutang stamp bag of heroin. After that i was a regular William Burroughs. Within two years my life turned to shot and i went for the cure via methadone. This was before bupe and after about 20 hospital detoxes using catapres and librium.. you kids don't know how much easier it is these day's to do junk. When i started you either found a way to get heroin or you went to detox. There was no magic pill like there is now with subs. I got kicked off the meth clinic after two years of 90mgs a day for testing dirty for benzos a hundred times. They fucked me with a seven day drop from 90 to 0. I can't think of anything worse than methadone withdrawal. Oh wait ya i can, withdrawal from methadone and a ten mg a day alprazolam habit. The meth made me so sick to the point i couldn't get out of bed to cop dope or benzos. That was the most devastating three months of my life. You would think i would have learned my lesson but after i started feeling better three months later, right back to the dope man. See h on the north east coast of the us comes in little wax bags called stamp bags with logos printed on the bags, i.e. cadillac, or liberty powers. The thing is stamps are a mixture of heroin #4, fentanyl, and cut. I know this because i got arrested with four "orange crush" bags, and they routinely sent the bags to the lab for analysis, and i saw the report. There was also .5% barbituate listed. The differences between stamps and tar is the withdrawal. Everything about stamps is addictive. There is a little less than .1 in each bag and certain things like the different logos, the ripping open of multiple bags and watching it all pile up on a spoon, and especially the unexplainable euphoric rush you get immediately after pushing the plunger down. I can't count how many times i woke up with a needle in my arm and only half of the dope pushed in. Then the sickness, it is so awful you will rob your own mother to get off sick especially if you go like three days without a bag. There is no way that you won't go find ten dollars to stop feeling that way. Imagine if you were buried alive, and the only way out was to take money from a family market to get out. Would you get the money or just wait there not able to move while your six feet under knowing that thereis a way out. That's the only way i can describe it. So i kept slamming stamp bags because once your hooked (pre buprenorphine), that is your only option. I eventually got my head kicked in by task force for possession of four fucking bags. They wanted me to flip on the dealer and i wouldn't so they gave me the beat down that made the Rodney king video look like a Disney movie. Even if i was a lousy rat i couldn't do it anyways because the blacks in Pittsburgh have the dope game running like a well oiled machine. They have kids on bikes " look outs- to inform the dealers of the neighborhood is hot or not. And if they see you talking to a cop, chances are you are going to get shot next time you go to cop ( and you will). So i sat in jail for three weeks waiting for trial and they gave me two years of probation. There was a good and a bad side of that. The good side was because of the random drug tests i had no choice but to get off junk, but the bad side was because of the drug tests, i couldn't even smoke weed!!! Luckily, however this is about the time buprenorphine appeared. It wasn't subutex or suboxone though, it was 1mg of bupe compounded by the pharmacist into wax cubes. The psych had me on them for a month where the next phase was to be prescribed revia (naltrexone- a mu opiod antagonist.). Please friends never let anyone convince you to willingly swallow one of those god awful pills. I took one then boarded a grey hound bus to go see a girl in boca raton Florida. Holy shit ten minutes later i started getting extreme hot flashes and goose bumps, passing out on the person next to me, going in and out of consciousness, etc. I don't know why this happened but regardless why take something that is going to block your endorphines anyways. As soon as i got off the bus, i met someone selling dilaudid 8s. Shit they were nice to bang. That guy eventually disappeared and i found a girl selling roxy 30s (oxycodone instant release 30mg). What heavenly little buggers. I had never heard of them before but i was in love. In Florida there is hundreds of pain clinics so op opiod pharms were everywhere. They actually have magazines full of adds for different pain clinics. The only problem was you needed a 400 dollar mri and 200 for the croaker. The thing is while looking through this catalog i kept seeing adds for "suboxone- the cure". I did some research and found a suboxone doctor in Pittsburgh. That's the shit that saved my life. At first my doc was writing me 4 8mg suboxone a day and i started getting migrations and i told him about this and he switched me to 8mg subutex times four a day. Suboxone is buprenorphine with a tiny bit of naloxone which is supposedly to deter iv use of the pills. It in fact is just a marketing ploy. I cannot tell you how many suboxones went through my veins. Subutex is straight buprenorphine, which the only difference i could notice is they didn't taste orange like suboxone. Pretty much every vein in my body is collapsed from multiple daily bupe injections. I realized finally that under the tongue is actually better. It lasts longer, and in my opinion it feels better. It also gives me energy that roa and after you bang so much bupe it does nothing but take away your withdrawals and take care of the ridiculous needle Jones. I've been on bupe for a long time now and was recently switched to the suboxone strips ( little rectangle dissolving films →
http://goo.gl/tw1sI ). Many people hate them but i like them because they have a higher bio availability, they dissolve quickly under the tongue, and its easier to measure out precise doses by folding them and cutting little pieces off with tiny scissors. So now that its easy to get high over the weekend and instantly get well on Monday by taking a sub, i have been chipping here and there. Mostly monthly i trade my dl-amphetamine 30mg irs to a lady for a few 100mcg/hr fentanyl patches (watson brand with gel inside). DON'T ATTEMPT THE FOLLOWING IT IS DANGEROUS BEHAVIOR AND I AM NOT ADVOCATING ANYONE TRYING IT: I squeeze out beads of the gel onto a paper clip, smear it on foil, hold a lighter under it and inhale the smoke and hold it in like crack. I usually do this on temazepam which is basically Russian roulette, but i have to admit it is heavenly. And i get a shit ton of huge hits from one patch?!! I love it so much to the point i can't even think about it because i crave really hard. Today i got my script of adds and anxiously awaiting my monthly fentanyl barter, i got a call from the speed freak saying that she lost her patches. I was so angry and i snapped out on her which is something i usually don't do. Anyways she is an addict to speed like junkies are to dope, so i sympathized and told her i would front her some. And i was sick because i stopped taking my subs three days prior. Lucky for me she brought someone with her that had a script of oxycontin. I haven't done oxy in years and didn't know that these generic OP 40mg oxycontins are almost impossible to break down the time release. So i threw off some amp for three oxy 40s. I already had 90mg of amphetamine salts in my system and was speeding my ass off reading through numerous bluelight posts about this new generic (
http://goo.gl/yNxfB ← picture of three OP 40s surrounded by amphetamine ) anyways the bl posts had me really disappointed. I'm not the type to mess around by using acetone and other stuff fit for a chemist. So speeding like hell i took two hydroxyzine hcl and ten mg of valium and bit each pill in half and broke a tooth biting the third one and took another 30 of amphetamine to spice things up. I honestly didn't think i would get high off 120mg of time released oxycodone but i gotta tell you, I'm blasted. It took like an hour and a half and i was almost sure i wasn't going to feel it, but about three sentences ago that beautiful opiod feeling hit me out of no where. And the good thing about this is supposedly it lasts for twelve hours!!! Yea baby. I always forget how good the opiate high is until it hits me. I think the adderall, diazepam, and hydroxyzine are all doing a great job of potentiating. Oh euphoria. I'm going to try some gabapentin too because i heard that is a good opiate enhancer. I think, however, that hydroxyzine is one of the most under rated drugs for strengthening opiates. I've read in several pdrs and other professional literature that they actually use hydroxyzine in hospitals for potentiating. I swear look it up. I'm sorry for such a long post but there are two things that make me talk allot and they are amphetamine and opiates - both combined omg. If anything i hope this post might convince some people to stay away from the fickle opium alkaloids. It might sound like I'm having fun, but i didn't mention all the permanent damage i caused myself and my loving family. Also there were plenty more miserable days than good ones, but if you are ok about being a life long slave to a chemical by all means do what i did. If you want to be opium's bitch it will be glad to fuck you and take all your money. And there is not a better feeling than standing in the ghetto in the dead of winter watching the cadillac escalade approach you with chrome rims that you paid for with the tears and money of yours and your family. Don't forget, when you are a junky, you aren't just harming yourself, but you are also destroying every one that loves you... only difference is your the only one getting high and escaping reality while your mom, dad, brother, spouse or whoever is at home either crying or sick from being worried shitless that they are going to get that phone call to come identify your body. They don't get to feel that warm rush that you do, just the misery and pain. I'm not trying to preach but if by saying this i can help just one person and their family to not have to enter this hell on earth, then it is worth the time.
Peace Love Unity Respect,
mygreenbic @sp0r412
