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Bluelighter
Meth is the most euphoric, longest lasting, and best drug to use both as a tool and for recreation. Price-wise its alright, the amount you get for the money you spend ends up lasting you much more than something like coke.
On the downside it does have one of the most horrific crashes, smoking it makes it become uber fiendy and feels like your just smoking super crack (i hate crack). Sniffing it was very enjoyable tho. Benzos are a must for the comedown imo.
I'm addicted to amphetamine tho. I would love to be doing dex but i have no source. I only get adderall.
Meth also is not very common at all around me. Only have known one dealer, tho if someones gonna have meth in ny, chances are its nice shards. I don't see why anyone would bother with meth that isn't 'the good shit' if its not even popular in the area. If its not fat shards i doubt it'd be bought by anyone.
I hate cocaine. I hate the short lived high, the overwhelming annoying desire to redose that becomes really inconvienent. WAY overpriced, simply in regards to the drug when compared with its effects and duration the cost is too high for the experience AND the amount doesnt provide doses lasting long enough, nor is the amount enough to enjoy as many worthwile highs. Short drug duration and shitty amount of drug both cause a high that isn't enough in multiple ways. Oh and lastly, coke is most often cut to the point that a what feels like a ripoff of a drug (unless you have massive amounts of high quality stuff) becomes a ripoff of a drug that is already a ripoff. Unless you waste a load of cash you usually get cut shitty blow. even if you spend alot its still rarely great. since when is a gram .7? especially when this trash is already cut anyway? if i'm gonna waste 50 on something I expect it to last me at the very least the whole day, and it better be pretty enjoyable. So what the fuck am I supposed to do with one gram (hopefully unless dealing with sleazy assholes) that is likely cut, hopefully not with anything that agitates my nose. So lets say a g of fishscale soft 'rocks' are what I obtain. Thats STILL only a few hours of enjoyment and obsessing over the next dose, also worrying about running out and wondering if I can obtain more then questioning my judgement and wondering if what I suddenly feel is the fix to any possible stress and overwhelming bliss guaranteed really is only a skewed ability to rationalize and completely impaired judgement. Deciding the latter, I end up realizing I'm stuck in an eventual situation cuz on coke everything is eventual. I can give in to my mindless fiending and let myself appease my primitive urges. waste a ton more money on a drug i dont really enjoy THAT much simply to either get it and have a brief dissapointing perioid that i try to obtain that satisfaction, fail, end up in the same situation i started in and have to make the same call on whether more is worth it OR I decide not to get a second G, and I spend my high worrying about when it runs out and obsessing over how much i use and how long i make it last while still being able to feel 'euphoric'...which after an hour really is just the ability to still feel so motivated and driven to keep this sideshow up and the delusions that I enjoy trying to enjoy doing coke are really how I feel. Well I don't believe that. I know its only enjoyable mixed in a shot with dope tbh, all other routes and ways of using coke suck.
lastly, fuck coke completely cuz I have Alpha-PPP which is very much like IV coke/meth, and it beats coke in all areas even when considering the few inherent flaws a-ppp has.
In my royal kingdom of stimulants the castle goes like this.
Meth is king - win
Dex is prince - sorta like daddy, great drug but falls short of the throne only in potency and euphoria
RC's (Meph,a-ppp,M1,4-fa) they're the Queen - not dominating areas they affect or being the best ___*insert attribute of something/category*, but still royal/good, feels somethings missing.(this only is in regard to RCs Ive done)
Adderall - princess. kinda a bitch stimulant, its still relevant and worth using and can be enjoyable or atleast useful. basically it just looks pretty (has decent effect and properties as a stim) and exists as part of the royal family of uppers which means its a great stimulant and also enjoyable substance, however its really just a useless figurehead that is like the template which got improved and tweaked out in various ways resulting in the better stimulants. If you have access to any/all of the other family members than adderall is pointless, its the same as the rest except the others are better.
Cocaine - the court jester. you may get some laughs and quick thrills from this, and it has an element of royalty/elegance to it since its used by and entertains the important people, the king, and the rest of the royal family all have some connection with this drug. when you do coke you know you're doing what is socially very enjoyable, when you come see the jester you know YOU ARE being entertained by the kings personal clown, so chances are he's atleast a little funny and talented. Coke will offer you some quick brief enjoyment and fun, it is a pain in the ass in a lot of ways tho. perhaps the jester just isn't that funny but you still find yourself watching and clapping requesting encore after encore. Sometimes coke isn't even very enjoyable and the euphoria is just satisfaction you feel from doing coke, which you keep doing, and its not even that great but not doing it feels like it'd suck so to keep enjoying doing coke you keep doing it, which makes you feel you have something to do, its important and you want to do it, you enjoy how you feel on it because you are consumed by excitement and anticipation for how enjoyable the time you will have is, craving that next rush and thrilled about the time you are having aka the time you plan to have that has you so excited. This lame clown of a drug feels so empty...its just anticipation and excitement for whats coming, and sure that makes life feel like you're a rockstar for a bit, but it becomes a cycle of being excited to do more coke and then doing it and then thinking it and feeling your reward system in your brain buzzing. The closer you get to just fiending for more the more primitive,dull,and overwhelming the using becomes, leaving anything the coke may have been able to enhance as a thought that gets ignored cuz you get so caught up in being high you dont actually enjoy your high, you just feel it. With heroin coke can be nice, but that's kinda like a how hamburgers are tasty, but adding cheese and making it a cheeseburger makes it epic. heroin is a hamburger that is a tasty food. Hamburgers are liked as they are, they can be eaten as is. coke is cheese that makes this pairing become a heroic morsel for your eating pleasure. cheese only is worthy of praise as a condiment for your burger, by itself its not really satisfying like burgers can be and cheeseburgers ARE. so what im getting at is speedballs are the shit. speedballs if done correctly and dosed according to your sweet spots parameters with decent dope to work with are an entire happy meal, drink, and a fuckin wicked toy.
Crack - The village idiot. amusing to laugh at. but not someone you want to stick around for more than a chuckle. annoying, redundant, problematic, crack is a high that is only good for a few minutes tops, then its shit, and the high is not something worth trying to achieve, it doesn't improve your life in any way aside from a few minutes of feeling like your not a loser crackhead. People on crack are not fun to be around and can become all types of issues depending on severity, theyre annoying, obnoxious, aggressive, paranoid, impulsive, really all around shitty company. Being on crack makes you single minded obsessive impairs judgement fiending sleazy capable of doing things you regret because you get in the moment and only care about rocks and more rocks. Being the village idiot, you're widely acclaimed as the biggest dumbass around. Patronized at all times and avoided most of the time, you really are just expected to commit acts of stupidity and fuck stuff up - and you got the title by being it - so you probably will fuck everything up. Being in the company of the village idiot - basically all the shitty things about you as the idiot except theyre someone else, who only can get in your way, need you to help at everything, causes you problems with things youre doing or has to be watched or avoided because theyll interfere with what youre doing or end up ruining or stealing your belongings. nobody likes the village idiot. nobody wants to be the village idiot. crack is truly THE village idiot of all idiots from a village that already has the lowest standards in its population. Crack is a last place in the special olympics type of drug. Even in terms of sketchy shitty lame things that are frowned upon by pretty much everybody in society, crack is somehow beyond shitty. If its not already considered awful beyond any point of redemption, it will find a way to top itself. It can always get worse.
Really its main contribution to the world is as a stereotypical collection of traits people use to joke around with and it can act as a substitute for all types of negative things people use to say or describe stuff with. so people can say you're acting cracked out or 'what're you smoking crack?' the idea of crack and crackheads is amusing....until one shows up or you become one. they really are something else when you think about it..a person has devoted their entire life and has become in every way possible a living breathing model of a human brain afflicted by a very archetypical addiction. This creatures appearance, behavior, thoughts, health, role in society, ability to interact with the world and how the world reacts to it all can be directly linked to crack and its influence can be visually observed in appearance and almost all traits the person exhibits. thoughts, life, really simplifies and becomes quite basic and primitive it seems, the complexity our free will and imagination give to our lives is void in a serious crackhead. this is barely a sentient creature and more similar to cocaine dependent rats. Basically a mammal with a coke addiction seems it'd really not have many differences as we go from species to species. Kinda neat...lol its like as if someone programmed a code that can modify the way something works enough to become the new template for how something functions and loaded it into an operating system of thought. The result, the code creates a program that everything is run through and executed by and the code integrates itself as the controls for how the system works, processes things and behaves. The code also creates a system of operation that becomes the primary goal for this system. Its a thought system. A mind. The code - lets say crack - a chemical substance capable of greatly altering neurotransmission and changing the basic way the chemical processes in our minds work. Our minds are altered directly by the substance and theyre also changed in the ways that they function as time passes crack integrates into how the mind works and its effects are anticipated for, the mind works the substance into its mental structure and changes the way it works so that it includes crack. Basically becoming so overrun by something like this is like taking a computer that originally just ran DOS but you installed windows on it. Ppl start with dos and then build their own mental os, but crackheads install a bioengineered os that adapts until it becomes fully compatible with our mind, then it starts to restructure it. It works on the preexisting system and alters it in ways that it has a ripple effect and everything becomes affected. It's as if windows or linux can be installed into the computer minds by introducing something that greatly affects neurotransmission and causes the dopamine reuptake inhibition model of addiction to become the primary function in ones mind, and the constant battle against downregulation and depleted neurotransmitters as well as the internal desire to maintain a dopamine level that the mind labels as its goal despite desensitization of the receptors and tolerance building. homeostasis basically becomes the entire driving force behind all actions, thoughts...life. And once that takes over, in order to function and maintain homeostasis under an addiction stricken system one must devote all their time and energy into staying stable, which outwardly seems like all types of bullshit but in reality all the life has been reduced to is maintaining consistent health by following the addiction cycle.
I suppose what I was thinking and obviously rambling while tweaked on a-ppp was that crack/cocaine and its pharmalogical properties when introduced to a certain thought system such as the one humans and mammals have and anything similar to it, result in a combination that interacts with and alters our neurochemistry in a way that almost seems like cocaine becomes like a virus or parasite....or perhaps the person does. Actually, it seems to me like cocaine acts as a mutation or evolution that creates a set of traits that are very common among all minds under cocaines influence. The set of traits and behaviors that it results in create what becomes almost a new personality and new creature that surely has its own individual traits that remain and others cause the traits coke adds to be expressed in slightly different ways than others, but the general creature it creates, the dopamine addiction model for a mind, seems so fascinating as well as overbearing. Fucking around with dopamines normal biopsychiatry really changes a lot about what a persons mind reacts like and how it functions, why, and how the original way things worked compared to the chemically altered way differ as well as their similarities. Its interesting to think that such influence and/or entire parts of our personalities and the ways we act and thing are capable of becoming catalogued and anticipated. a mind affected that exhibits the set of traits and behaviors expected can be changed by a chemical that contains pharmalogical effects that result in these predetermined reactions that we express when our bodies and minds react to the effects of the drugs. Basically chemicals that alter our drives enough seem like they are like pre-made modifications that can exist in nature and assimilate with us, changing very much of the way we process our thoughts.
Imagine large amounts of people took a drug that affected the basic reward and motivation drive the way crack cocaine does in seriously addicted minds. perhaps with different results than dopamine/crack addiction traits. If that could be harnessed and used for something positive that'd be pretty intense. Not saying simply drugs affecting minds, more like situations where the mind is severly altered by drugs and all the neurotransmitters and receptors original patterns are shifted. If something could induce such drastic alterations to people I wonder if you could like...overexaggerate fight or flight chemically and cause it to always result in fight, and to express that beyond its normal intensity...lol.....could make an army of rage virus zombies perhaps eh???
ok im gonna grab some food cuz i havent eaten (rememebr the whole im tweaked thing..lol...im sure you can tell...)
aight thats all
On the downside it does have one of the most horrific crashes, smoking it makes it become uber fiendy and feels like your just smoking super crack (i hate crack). Sniffing it was very enjoyable tho. Benzos are a must for the comedown imo.
I'm addicted to amphetamine tho. I would love to be doing dex but i have no source. I only get adderall.
Meth also is not very common at all around me. Only have known one dealer, tho if someones gonna have meth in ny, chances are its nice shards. I don't see why anyone would bother with meth that isn't 'the good shit' if its not even popular in the area. If its not fat shards i doubt it'd be bought by anyone.
I hate cocaine. I hate the short lived high, the overwhelming annoying desire to redose that becomes really inconvienent. WAY overpriced, simply in regards to the drug when compared with its effects and duration the cost is too high for the experience AND the amount doesnt provide doses lasting long enough, nor is the amount enough to enjoy as many worthwile highs. Short drug duration and shitty amount of drug both cause a high that isn't enough in multiple ways. Oh and lastly, coke is most often cut to the point that a what feels like a ripoff of a drug (unless you have massive amounts of high quality stuff) becomes a ripoff of a drug that is already a ripoff. Unless you waste a load of cash you usually get cut shitty blow. even if you spend alot its still rarely great. since when is a gram .7? especially when this trash is already cut anyway? if i'm gonna waste 50 on something I expect it to last me at the very least the whole day, and it better be pretty enjoyable. So what the fuck am I supposed to do with one gram (hopefully unless dealing with sleazy assholes) that is likely cut, hopefully not with anything that agitates my nose. So lets say a g of fishscale soft 'rocks' are what I obtain. Thats STILL only a few hours of enjoyment and obsessing over the next dose, also worrying about running out and wondering if I can obtain more then questioning my judgement and wondering if what I suddenly feel is the fix to any possible stress and overwhelming bliss guaranteed really is only a skewed ability to rationalize and completely impaired judgement. Deciding the latter, I end up realizing I'm stuck in an eventual situation cuz on coke everything is eventual. I can give in to my mindless fiending and let myself appease my primitive urges. waste a ton more money on a drug i dont really enjoy THAT much simply to either get it and have a brief dissapointing perioid that i try to obtain that satisfaction, fail, end up in the same situation i started in and have to make the same call on whether more is worth it OR I decide not to get a second G, and I spend my high worrying about when it runs out and obsessing over how much i use and how long i make it last while still being able to feel 'euphoric'...which after an hour really is just the ability to still feel so motivated and driven to keep this sideshow up and the delusions that I enjoy trying to enjoy doing coke are really how I feel. Well I don't believe that. I know its only enjoyable mixed in a shot with dope tbh, all other routes and ways of using coke suck.
lastly, fuck coke completely cuz I have Alpha-PPP which is very much like IV coke/meth, and it beats coke in all areas even when considering the few inherent flaws a-ppp has.
In my royal kingdom of stimulants the castle goes like this.
Meth is king - win
Dex is prince - sorta like daddy, great drug but falls short of the throne only in potency and euphoria
RC's (Meph,a-ppp,M1,4-fa) they're the Queen - not dominating areas they affect or being the best ___*insert attribute of something/category*, but still royal/good, feels somethings missing.(this only is in regard to RCs Ive done)
Adderall - princess. kinda a bitch stimulant, its still relevant and worth using and can be enjoyable or atleast useful. basically it just looks pretty (has decent effect and properties as a stim) and exists as part of the royal family of uppers which means its a great stimulant and also enjoyable substance, however its really just a useless figurehead that is like the template which got improved and tweaked out in various ways resulting in the better stimulants. If you have access to any/all of the other family members than adderall is pointless, its the same as the rest except the others are better.
Cocaine - the court jester. you may get some laughs and quick thrills from this, and it has an element of royalty/elegance to it since its used by and entertains the important people, the king, and the rest of the royal family all have some connection with this drug. when you do coke you know you're doing what is socially very enjoyable, when you come see the jester you know YOU ARE being entertained by the kings personal clown, so chances are he's atleast a little funny and talented. Coke will offer you some quick brief enjoyment and fun, it is a pain in the ass in a lot of ways tho. perhaps the jester just isn't that funny but you still find yourself watching and clapping requesting encore after encore. Sometimes coke isn't even very enjoyable and the euphoria is just satisfaction you feel from doing coke, which you keep doing, and its not even that great but not doing it feels like it'd suck so to keep enjoying doing coke you keep doing it, which makes you feel you have something to do, its important and you want to do it, you enjoy how you feel on it because you are consumed by excitement and anticipation for how enjoyable the time you will have is, craving that next rush and thrilled about the time you are having aka the time you plan to have that has you so excited. This lame clown of a drug feels so empty...its just anticipation and excitement for whats coming, and sure that makes life feel like you're a rockstar for a bit, but it becomes a cycle of being excited to do more coke and then doing it and then thinking it and feeling your reward system in your brain buzzing. The closer you get to just fiending for more the more primitive,dull,and overwhelming the using becomes, leaving anything the coke may have been able to enhance as a thought that gets ignored cuz you get so caught up in being high you dont actually enjoy your high, you just feel it. With heroin coke can be nice, but that's kinda like a how hamburgers are tasty, but adding cheese and making it a cheeseburger makes it epic. heroin is a hamburger that is a tasty food. Hamburgers are liked as they are, they can be eaten as is. coke is cheese that makes this pairing become a heroic morsel for your eating pleasure. cheese only is worthy of praise as a condiment for your burger, by itself its not really satisfying like burgers can be and cheeseburgers ARE. so what im getting at is speedballs are the shit. speedballs if done correctly and dosed according to your sweet spots parameters with decent dope to work with are an entire happy meal, drink, and a fuckin wicked toy.
Crack - The village idiot. amusing to laugh at. but not someone you want to stick around for more than a chuckle. annoying, redundant, problematic, crack is a high that is only good for a few minutes tops, then its shit, and the high is not something worth trying to achieve, it doesn't improve your life in any way aside from a few minutes of feeling like your not a loser crackhead. People on crack are not fun to be around and can become all types of issues depending on severity, theyre annoying, obnoxious, aggressive, paranoid, impulsive, really all around shitty company. Being on crack makes you single minded obsessive impairs judgement fiending sleazy capable of doing things you regret because you get in the moment and only care about rocks and more rocks. Being the village idiot, you're widely acclaimed as the biggest dumbass around. Patronized at all times and avoided most of the time, you really are just expected to commit acts of stupidity and fuck stuff up - and you got the title by being it - so you probably will fuck everything up. Being in the company of the village idiot - basically all the shitty things about you as the idiot except theyre someone else, who only can get in your way, need you to help at everything, causes you problems with things youre doing or has to be watched or avoided because theyll interfere with what youre doing or end up ruining or stealing your belongings. nobody likes the village idiot. nobody wants to be the village idiot. crack is truly THE village idiot of all idiots from a village that already has the lowest standards in its population. Crack is a last place in the special olympics type of drug. Even in terms of sketchy shitty lame things that are frowned upon by pretty much everybody in society, crack is somehow beyond shitty. If its not already considered awful beyond any point of redemption, it will find a way to top itself. It can always get worse.
Really its main contribution to the world is as a stereotypical collection of traits people use to joke around with and it can act as a substitute for all types of negative things people use to say or describe stuff with. so people can say you're acting cracked out or 'what're you smoking crack?' the idea of crack and crackheads is amusing....until one shows up or you become one. they really are something else when you think about it..a person has devoted their entire life and has become in every way possible a living breathing model of a human brain afflicted by a very archetypical addiction. This creatures appearance, behavior, thoughts, health, role in society, ability to interact with the world and how the world reacts to it all can be directly linked to crack and its influence can be visually observed in appearance and almost all traits the person exhibits. thoughts, life, really simplifies and becomes quite basic and primitive it seems, the complexity our free will and imagination give to our lives is void in a serious crackhead. this is barely a sentient creature and more similar to cocaine dependent rats. Basically a mammal with a coke addiction seems it'd really not have many differences as we go from species to species. Kinda neat...lol its like as if someone programmed a code that can modify the way something works enough to become the new template for how something functions and loaded it into an operating system of thought. The result, the code creates a program that everything is run through and executed by and the code integrates itself as the controls for how the system works, processes things and behaves. The code also creates a system of operation that becomes the primary goal for this system. Its a thought system. A mind. The code - lets say crack - a chemical substance capable of greatly altering neurotransmission and changing the basic way the chemical processes in our minds work. Our minds are altered directly by the substance and theyre also changed in the ways that they function as time passes crack integrates into how the mind works and its effects are anticipated for, the mind works the substance into its mental structure and changes the way it works so that it includes crack. Basically becoming so overrun by something like this is like taking a computer that originally just ran DOS but you installed windows on it. Ppl start with dos and then build their own mental os, but crackheads install a bioengineered os that adapts until it becomes fully compatible with our mind, then it starts to restructure it. It works on the preexisting system and alters it in ways that it has a ripple effect and everything becomes affected. It's as if windows or linux can be installed into the computer minds by introducing something that greatly affects neurotransmission and causes the dopamine reuptake inhibition model of addiction to become the primary function in ones mind, and the constant battle against downregulation and depleted neurotransmitters as well as the internal desire to maintain a dopamine level that the mind labels as its goal despite desensitization of the receptors and tolerance building. homeostasis basically becomes the entire driving force behind all actions, thoughts...life. And once that takes over, in order to function and maintain homeostasis under an addiction stricken system one must devote all their time and energy into staying stable, which outwardly seems like all types of bullshit but in reality all the life has been reduced to is maintaining consistent health by following the addiction cycle.
I suppose what I was thinking and obviously rambling while tweaked on a-ppp was that crack/cocaine and its pharmalogical properties when introduced to a certain thought system such as the one humans and mammals have and anything similar to it, result in a combination that interacts with and alters our neurochemistry in a way that almost seems like cocaine becomes like a virus or parasite....or perhaps the person does. Actually, it seems to me like cocaine acts as a mutation or evolution that creates a set of traits that are very common among all minds under cocaines influence. The set of traits and behaviors that it results in create what becomes almost a new personality and new creature that surely has its own individual traits that remain and others cause the traits coke adds to be expressed in slightly different ways than others, but the general creature it creates, the dopamine addiction model for a mind, seems so fascinating as well as overbearing. Fucking around with dopamines normal biopsychiatry really changes a lot about what a persons mind reacts like and how it functions, why, and how the original way things worked compared to the chemically altered way differ as well as their similarities. Its interesting to think that such influence and/or entire parts of our personalities and the ways we act and thing are capable of becoming catalogued and anticipated. a mind affected that exhibits the set of traits and behaviors expected can be changed by a chemical that contains pharmalogical effects that result in these predetermined reactions that we express when our bodies and minds react to the effects of the drugs. Basically chemicals that alter our drives enough seem like they are like pre-made modifications that can exist in nature and assimilate with us, changing very much of the way we process our thoughts.
Imagine large amounts of people took a drug that affected the basic reward and motivation drive the way crack cocaine does in seriously addicted minds. perhaps with different results than dopamine/crack addiction traits. If that could be harnessed and used for something positive that'd be pretty intense. Not saying simply drugs affecting minds, more like situations where the mind is severly altered by drugs and all the neurotransmitters and receptors original patterns are shifted. If something could induce such drastic alterations to people I wonder if you could like...overexaggerate fight or flight chemically and cause it to always result in fight, and to express that beyond its normal intensity...lol.....could make an army of rage virus zombies perhaps eh???
ok im gonna grab some food cuz i havent eaten (rememebr the whole im tweaked thing..lol...im sure you can tell...)aight thats all
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