Xanax is the most recreational for me, an 1/8th of a bar has me feeling fairly barred out but functional and sociable, I can tolerate up to 1/2 a bar but that's when things get blurry (amnesia sets in) and I get loose with my money and words and become much more promiscuous. I currently avoid a prescription for it and have alerted my doctors that I have a tendency to overuse Xanax, but have leftover "alprazolam jelly squares" from the darknet...a sheet of aquamarine-colored jelly that is meant to contain 3mg per square. It feels different to me, though, so I'm not totally sure it's the real thing.
Just got prescribed temazepam as a sleep aide today. My doc was especially scatterbrained and we never discussed how it would interact with my standing script for 30 1mg clonazepams monthly (one a day or as needed) which are used for panic attacks and anxiety, but my sharp pharmacist called to clarify--I'm not to use both at once, but I'm at a loss as to what to use for acute panic should it arise. Hmm. The temazepam is a lot 'heavier' and soporific than other benzos I'm used to, 30mg as a starting dose. I've tried taking 30mg temazepam and 30mg Adderall and it's a pleasant mix, but the temazepam is strong enough to nearly drown out what's normally a heavy dose of Adderall for me (which, taken alone, would have be clench-jawed cleaning every corner of the house or typing nonsense at lightning speeds).
Have tried valium as well in the past--never any strong effects, always felt it was the 'weakest' and least effective of the ones I've tried in helping my low-level constant general anxiety.
I have homemade etizolam solution volumetrically dosed in propylene glycol but I don't use it any longer.
That's about it. I used to sub in barbiturates (non-scripted, darknet) for benzos for inducing sleep but was aware of the increased risks of CNS depression and quit. I've also heard benzos in general actually damage healthy sleep architecture so we're gearing up to move on to eszopiclone next month, but z-drugs are a whole other class of weird, and I have a history with Ambien....
Finally, I try to use beta blockers instead of Klonopin for daily anxiety. It hits my autonomic nervous system I believe (could be wrong) and attacks the anxiety from the physiological side of things, not as a psychoactive.
Still figuring out how I feel about the temazepam--cognitive slowing is noticeable with it but the relaxation is strong and helpful....