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what is your addiction?

From pills to dope I'm hooked on opiates. I use dope now though bcuz its cheaper n pills are a waste of $$$
 
I'm currently addicted to benzodiazepines as well as opiates. My benzo habit isn't too bad, though lately I've been getting out of control with them, which is why it's been nearly 60 hours without a dose (clonazepam-long half life-usually takes me about 72 hours to really feel fucked up, I currently feel just incredibly twitchy), and I also take Methadone, 50mg/day and have been (since the end of September :-/) been shooting dope daily on top of it, which btw, is a very dumb thing to do, especially on a maintenance dose that is on the lower side of the spectrum..basically my methadone works as well as shooting five bags in the morning would-I feel good, no withdrawals for about 7-9 hours and then I start to feel uncomfortable again.

It's a really shitty situation I've gotten into, and now its gotten to the point where I need a bag in the morning to ensure I'll even get to the clinic..it's weird I guess, but my clinic is an hour away, sometimes more depending on the public transportation's efficacy, and I absolutely dread that trip unless I already have something in my system to get me there. There's a misconception that methadone outrageously potent, and that using Heroin on top of it would be like taking a T3 for someone who normally shoots Dilaudid, and its just not true. Methadone potent, but its not 'fentanyl style' strong. If someone is on methadone but under the blocking dose, shooting a bag or a 'point' would still effect you. And shooting two bags would probably make someone nod out even more because of the methadone.

Not to drag out this post as well as this topic, but I always hear people say that if you want to get high on heroin while on MMT, one would need to skip a day, or fix before going to the clinic. I find its the exact opposite.when I fix in the morning, I just don't feel sick...beyond the rush, the dope doesn't produce any more euphoric effects because its filling up the receptors (or some of them) that the methadone usually takes care of. If I do the same amount of dope about eight hours since taking my methadone, it hits me pretty hard (this all of course depends on the heroin's potency). In the end though, its not worth fucking up my tolerance for. It's frustrating too, because I know that probably after five days I would almost fully readjust to my methadone dose, but five days only seems like a small amount of time when you're not fiending.
 
Anything that induces a sense of euphoria or well being which is why I'm dependent on opiates and take benzos whenever I can get my hands on them.

I just get so anxious being sober that sometimes I find myself drinking just for a change in mind-state. Sometimes I smoke weed in situations where I know it's just going to make me anxious, but the desire to not be sober just overpowers.

I guess I know what areas I need to work on to improve my life.
 
Right now just valium, music, watching movies and the internet. Its a friggin miracle considering how bad my drug use was in 2012 or even a month ago!!!

I hope to transition into just being addicted to the gym and learning over the next few months...
 
Pornography, apparently tasteless music and amphetamine. Hands down. (I'm going to need it back--now.)
 
recovering heroin addict (almost 14 months clean from all drugs)
now: porn and cigs. been almost 3 weeks without porn :D
 
Porn, coffee, alcohol (well, I drink almost every day), Internet, reading about drugs and spirituality :D Porn is just so fucking good!
 
Trying to kick heroin with the help of methadone but I get hardcore cravings I give in to every couple days. Starting to get bored with heroin though, which I never thought I would say.

And zneg youre right, 5 days is not long when youre not fiending, but its a hell of a long time if you got heroin on the brain 24/7. I cleaned up last month for four days with the help of 'done for a court drug test, the cravings were driving me insane.

No other addictions. Former coke mainliner, a year long affair with iv meth. Thats about it. Hate porn and sex.
 
Computer / internet. I believe this to be the mother of all my addictions. I could live without ANY drugs, I would suffer a lot, probably end up a psychotic, depressed and anxious wreck, but I could live, as long as I can sit 24/7 in front of the screen. It's the only thing I can't think of living without...
 
At first it was mild speedballs. Meth + Vicodin, Cocaine + OxyContin.

Then it was full blown opiate addiction. OxyContin~Heroin.

Then it was Methadone and benzos.

Now I'm on bupe and I score benzos and weed when I can, suffer when I can't.

Opiates, Opiates, Opiates. They own me.

Benzos: I know I am courting a mild addiction with, but even after years of usage and insane dosing I have yet to become a full blown benzo addict. I just don't cop them enough.

And I am addicted to Fiction. Specifically Stephen King, Neil Gaiman, Roger Zelazny, Stephen Brust, Clive Barker, Elmore Leonard, Cormac McCarthy...
 
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