man i've been coked out for a solid week now and feel very addicted. i've been panicking today because i'm almost out of coke, can't get more for a while, and i haven't been sober in a week..i'm saving some base and a bump to wake up tomorrow, but after that i think it's gonna be hell for a while. my head hurts just thinking about it.

...i'm already addicted to my amphetamine script, average tolerance, but still...i need the stims for fatigue and ADD.
i think not being able to function without drugs is the most depressing thing to me. i feel hollow without them, unable to get motivated or alert enough to function in society...if i ever decide to get off the speed i'll have to go to some clinic i'm sure, because not dosing one day means i'll be asleep for 20-24 hours at a time...i don't know...i've done crystal a few times, but i don't find it nearly as addictive as coke..maybe because it helps my ADD more, and i don't need much crystal to function all day...when it's over with, i'm ready for bed..not cooking crack all night to get a bigger rush..
so we'll see....at least i've cut out the alcohol for a few weeks..but i never get cravings or withdrawal, even if i drink several beers 4-5 days a week for a month. i suppose i'm lucky.
now that i think of it, i find the euphoria of acid much more divine and pleasurable than any other....i get mentally addicted to tripping, but it never disturbs my senses or emotions..i feel much more open, content, and my productivity goes way up. in fact, i think it's time i get some acid. whenever i trip, it totally eliminates my addictions for a good long time....i know a few others who swear by this method too.
peace