i don't have a "est"... i just have a dumb and dumber list of events
+i was at livid a couple of years back... took this idiota hip hop chik... made me see all of the hip hop events...
... i have nothing against b-boys, girls... aussie hip hop... but fuck!! i missed the yeah yeah yeah, living end, black rebel motorcycle club!
+just cause i was the new girl in school, i let everyone blame me for chipping a girls tooth with a hockey stick... we were all huddled to get the puck.. and we all rushed in to get it first... the girl was right behind me... etc i know i didn't do it... my stick wasn't high enough - i always carry low to the ground cause im pretty fast... anyway, the PE teacher gave me a dirty look, the rest of my classmates started streaming by, shaking there heads...
that ruined bout two years of my school life; everyone thought i did this horrible thing to this girl, who was actually nice to me... and fuck... i didn't... i couldn't have... i had the worst self esteem, started being extremely needy, drove some friends away...
why didn't i stand up for myself? i was 11? 12? but i was smart... i knew how to stand up for myself... and i didn't... i
+flirted with this really christian girl... flirted with her until she started following me around like a love sick puppy... the moment she got the courage to ask me out... i cut off all contact... cause i was testing the water... cause i got a kick out of a girl who listened to "songs of worship, volume 2" in her discman at school, asking me out.... it was wrong, wrong and dumb, and mean... and sometimes i pass her... my bus passes her on the way to school... and i've never been able to face her... so, i duck, like the coward i am...
+started a fire on my desk... who knew a small birthday candle could do such damage?... it's fire jackass!!
my desk has a plastic shell... that pretty much melted... im lucky cause my desk is right next to my bed, if it caught fire to my bed i could've set the whole house alight...