xtcgrrrl
Bluelight Crew
...aside from their ability to get you high, of course! For me, what I'm talking about is a quality about them that your body reacts to, even if you sense it and don't get the desired high. For me, it's always been the SMELL that is a trigger. I used to love the smell/taste I would get of APAP (of all things) from swallowing a bunch of painkillers at once. Or the smell of burning plastic...or chemicals...or whatever it is that crack smells like. You know how some things just SMELL like your DOC? I was using a pen earlier today and I could smell the chemical smell of the ink, and it reminded me of crack. It's very triggering. I just had a heavy binge over the weekend and I plan to stay away for another couple of weeks at least, but when I SMELL things that remind me of the drugs it makes it more difficult for me to abstain. Thoughts?
