What is solitude?

In the past few months, I have been receiving "urgent" messages -- perhaps from my subconscious -- that I need to prepare myself to live in solitude. This being said, I cannot understand what this is trying to tell me. I currently am in a relationship with a very special person in which I believe we get along well. I am trying to sort through the possibilities of my subconscious requiring me to live by myself or if it simply means mental preparations (a "just in case", if you will) for any time I might have to live by myself.

I have a wonderful, supportive family and, as I have mentioned, I'm not considering breaking up with that special person. It's putting some stress in our relationship, though.

Any thoughts?

PS. Yes, I am a camel.

 

'My hump, my hump, my hump, my lovely camel humps ' :D

I was told that relationships force a person to really look at themselves. I think I agree. When we are involved with someone, we can't do precisely what we want to do and how we want to do it, we need to take that other person's desires into consideration.

I haven't been in a relationship in quite some time but have always assumed that some sort of 'assimilation' or balance between the two parties involved in a relationship would most certainly eventually occur within time. (I don't have any personal experience to lend credence to that, though)

I DO think that everyone needs some 'me time'. Maybe you aren't getting enough 'me time' for yourself?

 

We see each other once a week, for about 24 hours. 24 hours is quite a bit of time for me to spend continuously, no breaks except to sleep, but hey, I think we can work that out a little bit.

And to be fair, we can't always do precisely what we want, anyway. Unless we have the mental control and experience to tell us that something isn't a good idea, so we don't want to do it.

However, most of this might be my subconscious telling me "okay, dude. You've graduated from college, time to move out!". It's a bit stressful and I have said a couple things that are a bit mean to say to that special person. She doesn't need to deal with my issues the way I'm presenting them. It's not a fair thing to do.