dont worry, you will.
I remember posting here before I was an addict, when I thought being dependent of pot was addiction (seriously). I remember asking the addiction questions, the injection questions. Meeting up with BL'ers before they became addicts. The whole journey from pot, alcohol, and trips in highschool. Vic's and codiene were my favorites. Then came the oxy connect. Then you start associating with people much worse of then you, who maybe are on methadone or can get heroine. And you think your better then them, and it wont happen to you. But they know it will. Ahhh, the first detox, when people who have been doing it for 25 years try to knock sense into you, but I wasnt like them. If you are a member of this website, I look it as a statement of charactor. There are websites for everything under the sun, from cars, to travelling, to whatever it is that non-addict or drug obsessed people do. But we often define ourselves by drugs, ie. 'druggies'.
Sorry for the negativity of this post, im in bad space. It just seems like after going around the block a few times, I can identify a future addict from miles away, even in youths. Most people who are that curious about addiction will, in the long run, have to experience it first hand. I feel part of my evoloution in to the addict had to do with my childhood, pops was a drunk, and was demonized by my family, and in some strange way I subconscously wanted to know what that was like. Anyway, I was better then him because I wasnt a sloppy drunk, I was a slick occasional opiate user, but when I had steal from everyone, and kick dope in rikers island, I realized, its all the same, the bottom line is.
-note: I do realize this isnt everyones story, but just read it and let it factor in anyway, im sure you can get something from it even if you disagree.