What is holding you back in life today?

[simco]

cravings. thinking about the future (so am i really *never* gonna use again?). more craving.

 

[phactor]

cravings. thinking about the future (so am i really *never* gonna use again?). more craving.

"Just for Today" do not use. Take it one day at a time.

I still cannot fathom not using forever, but I do know that I am not going to use today and I probably will not tomorrow either.

 

[Mysterie]

my parents, my sister, all of my externalised inner critics

but realistically i hold myself back from finding out what i love to do

its scary

 

[Erikmen]

"Just for Today" do not use. Take it one day at a time.

I still cannot fathom not using forever, but I do know that I am not going to use today and I probably will not tomorrow either.

Sometimes, you have to say "Just for now", when cravings are too intense.
It will go away in less than half an hour..IME
Congratulations btw!

 

[Smoky]

my parents, my sister, all of my externalised inner critics

but realistically i hold myself back from finding out what i love to do

its scary

This is so very very true. I have a very strong inner critic. It can keep me on my toes but also paralyze me if I condemn myself from listening to what I internalized early on.

 

[simco]

impatience.

i keep noticing that i get sick of things really fast, during my as-yet-short clean time. and immediately after that: i want to *use.* i try to occupy my time to avoid craving. sometimes it works, but other times...less. right now, less.

 

[Smoky]

I hear ya - still get it myself. Someone once mentioned to me that there is a space between thought and action…

I guess the more I delay gratification the better I feel in the outcome of that action. Hopefully this will stick and become more automatic for me in time.

More automatic, learned.