What im thankful for...

My fucking life is what I'm thankful for...this is my first sober thanksgiving in 4 years... FOUR FUCKING YEARS...
ugh, I screwed up and invited my friends over for dinner with my family....I didn't see anything wrong with it but apparently its rude... and now i don't know what to do...
whateves...movin on... I think im going to join a gym...hahaha, its almost laughable to me because I don't think i've worked out since freshman year of college... but i have so much pent up aggression that I'm afraid is going to start spilling over unless I do something about it... I've gone back to being VERY in control of myself but I still need an outlet... painting was always a good one for me but i find myself getting mad at that..so...I think i'm due for something new... maybe once i fill up my ipod I'll feel better..music was always very theraptutic...maybe ill try that...fuck the gym, fuck the pain, fuck it all... holy shit..just got a paycheck for 152.00...I didn't even think to spend it on anything until my mom just asked me if i was okay to have money in my pocket....damnit....now its on my fucking mind...people just need to stop fucking worrying about me...if i want to use...i will..no one can stop me but myself...and i dont want it...i dont need it...fuck

 

a good outlet is exercise, and you don't need a gym to do it.

try doing a cycle of 25 push-ups 50 squats and 10 pull ups for 15mins non stop. its a good light beginning work out that requires jack shit to do. then escalate the reps and the time, and add in running. you'll have gotten in pretty good shape for very cheap.