What have you learnt from E?

[2c-goinsane]

i learned that cocain or opiates wasnt gonna be my problem

 

[ElHefe]

MDMA Completely changed my life, I was a pretty introspective person to begin with, but I was a republican right wing kinda guy, almost even bigoted, then I started getting into electronic music, and then the raver culture. If you've never rolled the raver culture is pretty weird, then I rolled and I felt more spiritual then before, I now am a liberal agnostic and my views on life and humanity have changed 180 Degrees

 

[hebb22]

Nothing.

 

[TearItDown]

People will always abuse your trust and kindness if you let them.

 

[Zzyzx]

I learnt that even if think you know all about MDMA and you think you respect the drug, it can come back and bite you in the ass when you least expect it.

 

[Necr0sis]

-I Love to Party
-I Love to Dance
-I Love To Roll Balls
-Make the Most out of Your Life (LIVE LIFE! DONT AVOID DEATH!(theres a difference))
-Helped me socialize more easily than before, in a more positive approach tho

 

[rave_itsrealfun!!!]

learned that:
-mdma makes me act ideally

-normally i act like a piece of shit in comparison, even though i'm always aware of how the best way to act is now, i just can't exist there yet (struggling dope fiend)

-that it is possible for me to love life

-after many uses, that it will never help me reach that perfect state of mind and actually hinders me now that i have acquired the experience of being all-loving, selfless, and the utmost outgoing

-that i fucking love techno more than i ever thought

-that marijuana is the fucking devil because it sends my consciousness in the total opposite direction away from the heavenly state of mdma and towards self-absorbed, non-loving lonely thought and i have become a slave to it, although i am so lost and addicted i continue to smoke and therefore arn't even sure of this point, maybe there is a way to transcend it

-that booze is a waste of time because with it i always drink to excess trying to reach the state of mind mdma allows me to experience, and fail every time because it makes me sloppy and retarded

-that my 'inner' thought processes, level of balance and inner peace, body language, my 'vibes', whatever- has a huge effect on how people interact with me before i even say a word to them or notice them. in everyday life, i think i ward people off whereas on mdma before i even speak people will be all over me starting conversations, wanting to get to know me, assuming i'm awesome, etc. i will even run into more friends on the street, or get awesome phone calls, like i am just totally in touch with the universe because of my positive thinking

-I have become more aware of anxiety and depression I previously had through means of having it lifted by MDMA

 

[computerscientist]

learned that:
-mdma makes me act ideally

-normally i act like a piece of shit in comparison, even though i'm always aware of how the best way to act is now, i just can't exist there yet (struggling dope fiend)

-that it is possible for me to love life

-after many uses, that it will never help me reach that perfect state of mind and actually hinders me now that i have acquired the experience of being all-loving, selfless, and the utmost outgoing

-that i fucking love techno more than i ever thought

-that marijuana is the fucking devil because it sends my consciousness in the total opposite direction away from the heavenly state of mdma and towards self-absorbed, non-loving lonely thought and i have become a slave to it, although i am so lost and addicted i continue to smoke and therefore arn't even sure of this point, maybe there is a way to transcend it

-that booze is a waste of time because with it i always drink to excess trying to reach the state of mind mdma allows me to experience, and fail every time because it makes me sloppy and retarded

-that my 'inner' thought processes, level of balance and inner peace, body language, my 'vibes', whatever- has a huge effect on how people interact with me before i even say a word to them or notice them. in everyday life, i think i ward people off whereas on mdma before i even speak people will be all over me starting conversations, wanting to get to know me, assuming i'm awesome, etc. i will even run into more friends on the street, or get awesome phone calls, like i am just totally in touch with the universe because of my positive thinking

I totally agree with this. Marijuana makes me the opposite of social and fuels bad thoughts. For a while alcohol makes me fun and social but I never seem to be able to limit myself with it. Before too long im slightly incoherent and feeling sick.

 

[rave_itsrealfun!!!]

Honestly I think a lot of people blame marijuana induced problems on MDMA. I've done it ~30 times, rolling HARD, in the past year and honestly I notice no difference, I was fucked up like this before I even started dropping. If anything I'm better off. No doubt it fries the brain but so does alcohol and look at how many people drink every weekend for years and years and seem fine. I believe that MDMA causes one to become more aware of anxiety and depression they already had, because those problems are completely lifted for the first time when one first drops.

Marijuana has driven me fuckin' insane bud I am in a terrible terrible place and I can't get out and it's all because of that fucking garbage I CANNOT quit. It has ruined my fucking life, I exist outside the social world, I am a fucking observer of my own pathetic existence. After every single social interaction, which I always see as a failure, especially with females, I envision how I would have interacted if I wasn't stoned and what I have lost for weed. If I don't quit blazing I am going to become a cokehead once I start workin because the weed destroys my confidence and I can't live like this any longer I may as well kill myself quickly for a chance at living a normal life on coke for a little while. I've done plenty of shit and weed is by far the worst of all for me. I just graduated university I should be so proud and happy of myself but instead I am a fucking depressed loner with no self esteem. Even getting an advanced degree can't induce any happiness in me at all I am such a lonely isolated fuck. Sorry this is off topic but fuck I have lost it lately and have no one to vent to.

 

[Keaton]

learned that:
-mdma makes me act ideally

-normally i act like a piece of shit in comparison, even though i'm always aware of how the best way to act is now, i just can't exist there yet (struggling dope fiend)

-that it is possible for me to love life

-after many uses, that it will never help me reach that perfect state of mind and actually hinders me now that i have acquired the experience of being all-loving, selfless, and the utmost outgoing

-that i fucking love techno more than i ever thought

-that marijuana is the fucking devil because it sends my consciousness in the total opposite direction away from the heavenly state of mdma and towards self-absorbed, non-loving lonely thought and i have become a slave to it, although i am so lost and addicted i continue to smoke and therefore arn't even sure of this point, maybe there is a way to transcend it

-that booze is a waste of time because with it i always drink to excess trying to reach the state of mind mdma allows me to experience, and fail every time because it makes me sloppy and retarded

-that my 'inner' thought processes, level of balance and inner peace, body language, my 'vibes', whatever- has a huge effect on how people interact with me before i even say a word to them or notice them. in everyday life, i think i ward people off whereas on mdma before i even speak people will be all over me starting conversations, wanting to get to know me, assuming i'm awesome, etc. i will even run into more friends on the street, or get awesome phone calls, like i am just totally in touch with the universe because of my positive thinking

-I have become more aware of anxiety and depression I previously had through means of having it lifted by MDMA

It sounds to me like you use drugs as an escape.
Abusing any drug is bad, you can't blame pot for the fact that you're too immature to use it responsibly.

 

[ThizzMon$teR]

Honestly ecstasy has taught me a little bit of self control. That drugs are fun but they definitely aren't whats important in life and to much can result in major problems.

 

[rave_itsrealfun!!!]

How is weed an escape? Personally it heightens my awareness and keeps me in the here and now. If anything I am more aware of my issues. So anyone with an addiction and anxiety or depression as a consequence is immature? I know a lot of very smart mature people who smoke weed all day long every day and wish they didn't. There are plenty of wise men in the world who have developed drug addictions along their way and I wouldn't call a 23 year old adult university graduate who you don't know immature because they continue to use a drug despite negative consequences. I think everyone here has probably been there at some point or another, including you. I am mature enough to be aware of the fact that it is destroying me and that I need to quit, a lot of people can't be honest with themselves especially if it's 'just weed'.

MDMA is a total escape for one night, moreso than any drug out there, and I think that's why most people use it. It sounds to me, Thizzlam, that ecstasy is your drug of choice It completely alters and improves (idealizes) one's behaviour in a social party situation. If you are shy, you can take MDMA and escape being a shy person for a night, and become the life of the party. Which is why everyone uses it right? Who takes MDMA and stays in and fries their brain for that purpose? It is not very enlightenment-related thought inducing. I imagine the vast majority of people who love MDMA are pretty introverted people. You can be really happy with no worries and dance up a storm and be selfless and love everybody for a night. If you are shy and you smoke pot, well, you're still gonna be shy, you're just gonna be high and even more aware of it if it affects you anything like it does me anyway.

 

[MrFaust]

not a whole lot its just a really awesome time