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What have you achieved?

I'm finding it sooooooo hard to quit drugs right now, so I haven't achieved anything there, but I am doing other things to help myself and others....

-Taking my vitamins and eating regular meals most days
-Made an appointment to get counseling
-Volunteering and getting an internship in an organization related to the career I want to go into
-SO far I'm passing my classes this term
-Biking and walking more as it gets warmer!
 
I have acheived 2 days off the wacky weed which doesnt sound like much but its harder to quit than cigs or about on par with oxycontin so im very proud of myself coz ive been sitting in a room with smokers most of the day and didnt even have one.

Also I went out a reefbreak today(surfing) which I would normally be scared to death of but I pushed myself that little bit and ended up getting some really great waves and those few waves have completely killed my depression, im quite happy today :)

Your right though libby, we do need to acknowledge our accomplishments more whether theyre big or you percieve them to be small, an accomplishment is an accomplishment whether it be big or small and that is a step forward in life. Your first step as a baby isnt much compared to what we do every day but smaller things such as your first step lead to bigger things.
 
The only certainty that we have in life, is that life is uncertain. Life is quite tricky!
But i'm managing to have an "well paid" lifestile. besides the drugs...
 
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more than i ever believed possible; i surprise myself all of the time.

just when i think im ready to throw the towel in, have a tantrum and say its "all too much"; i manage to pull my head from my ass, man up and fight the challenge.

digging up motivation to keep pressing through difficult situations/circumstances is something id credit myself for. i dont know where the hell it comes from; as i WANT to break and feel deep emotion sometimes, but the stubborn side of me wont let it happen, and in some backward way, it only makes me stronger? i refuse to let life tackle me, its MY frikken journey; and i wont have life (or outside influence) shape/take that from me in any way shape or form. i have a dream for a happy life, and i work my ass off to accomplish that every day.

im not perfect (far from it); but ill die striving for what i want; and never giving up.

...kytnism...:|
 
- I just got my CPRP which is a certification stating my competency in the field of psychiatric rehabilitation
- My family trusts me
- I haven't defaulted on my credit card for about 4 years
- I am 180 lbs and reasonably built (compared to 150 on E, 190 and flabby on dope, and 230 and sloppy as a drunk)
- I can do 40-50 push-ups where I use to only do 8 without collapsing
- I hiked to the top of Mount Killington (I'm not a skiier)
- I quit smoking a pack a day (I smoke once a week now socially over drinks)
- I haven't used heroin since 12/30/05

p.s. I like this thread
 
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**hAyzzZZ** said:
A big fat NOTHING
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I think you misunderstood this thread.. :/
I'm sure you have achieved something, even if its really really small, acknowledge it. :\
If you're the more modest type and feel uncomfortable posting it, even just achnowlede it to yourself.

Draigan said:
Life is a constant chance to achieve something right now. Isnt that all that really matters?
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That's an excellent point Draigan, and I think you are right.
but I find it helps motivate me to try to achieve something in the 'now' if I acknowledge I can do it because I've achieved other things... Like when I struggle with crystal meth. it helps me to say to myself, you quit ciggarettes you can quit this too... or when I'm like, fuck my room is so messy, there's no way I can clean it without drugs, and then i'm like but hey remember that one time, you cleaned it without any drugs, see, you can do it... *shrug* works for me anyway.
 
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actually, hayzzz, from wat ive read from other posts uve made it seems uve achieved a fuck of a lot more than u currently think :)

wat hav i achieved?
-clean from opiates for somewhere over a month (unless ur a nazi and think suboxone maintenance means im not clean)
-clean from meth for much much longer (i dont really count months anymore)
-made a whole bunch of new friends
-breaking in my first stallion and training him from scratch 4 yrs ago (maverick - and just look at him now!)
-won a whole heap of ribbons/trophies/sashes/money for show-jumping over the last few yrs since training my horse in this discipline.....having gone from jumping 95cm to 1.45m in competition over 2yrs!
-starting a new discipline on this horse, dressage, and already doing well
-training a foal from birth to lead, tie and pick up his hooves for me for the first time
-saving $5000....wen i never used to b able to save a cent!
-getting help for my panic disorder to the point i dont even consider myself to hav it anymore
-meeting the man of my dreams, the first man whos not a junkie AND treats me like a princess
-starting to develop a thicker skin and more self-esteem
-being chosen to b a mod on TDS (a job i take very seriously!)
-changing my attitude to life in general....remember me wen i first joined BL anyone?
-starting to get the hang of using paragraphs (may not seem a big deal but is very hard for me....getting easier by the day)
 
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No Libby I get the point of the thread, but everything I may have done may be all in vain at this point in time, Im yet to find out.

I'll come back in here in June.
 
this is probably going to sound dumb but all my parents asked of me was C's and above on my report card this year, and i actually did it... i was so proud of mysel but i ended up getting expelled 2 weeks into second semester..
 
^That doesn't sound dumb at all!! Well done for getting the Cs!!

Hayzzzz - So you understand, then you are just being rebellious hayzzzz!! Naughty naughty!.. I demand positive reflection from you!! Haha You don;t need to wait till june to be able to validate the actions you have taken, your achievements are your achievements there is no 'in vain' about it. Like if I manage to clean my room (odd as it sounds, this is actually an ordeal for me!) and then it gets messy again, was it in vain? some may see it that way, because it is again a mess, but things are suppost to cycle mess clean mess clean, and so my cleaning was still an achievement and not in vain... It's like saying, I ate a healthy meal today it was an achievement, but then I pooped it out this evening so it was all in vain, in vein I tell you, IN VAIN!!!! Which is obviously not true, its good to eat a healthy meal, and its even an achievement to poop I would say... anyway, my point, you dont need to have validation of the consequences of your actions in order to commend yourself for taking said actions.
 
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I am Alive!
I am not Physically Addicted to Heroin
I have cut my smoking by half
I have alot of new friends
My sons first dead show is coming up!
alot alot alot of love in my heart
and oh yeah yall rock!
 
You've made friends with me claire, that's an achievement, I'm pretty damn fly ya know ;)
Oh and I don't make friends with idiots.
 
Ok. These aren't drug-related, but...

I became among the top 1% of tournament poker players.

I was able to become a top ranked player in one fo my favorite board games.
 
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