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What have you achieved?

Libby

Libby

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I think us darksiders have a tendency to beat ourselves up over our failings (percieved or actual) and that it's important to stop and achknowledge the things we HAVE achieved, no matter how small.

I'll go first, and say I'm not sure if I will have another crystal meth relapse,
but I'm doing much better than I was last year.
I have quit biting my nails (havn't bitten them since last year)
and I have quit cigarettes (last one was November 16th 2008).

How about you, what have YOU achieved?
 
^ that is awesome Libby!

I also quit biting my nails- in the middle of an extremely stressful situation last summer.
I have started to accept a few things that I had basically ignored before.....
I stand my ground and stick up for myself more.....
I love my physical self again. :) (cheesy)
 
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well, my new years resolution was to do something about my depression. i'm on antidepressants now and even though i feel worse now, at least i am doing something! i am talking about my feelings after years of keeping them all to myself.
 
I can talk to females without freezing up and going all red
I am slowly loving to love my self
My self confidence is slowly growing
I express my mind even though alot of the time people dont like my opinion
Alot more open minded and have empathy towards people

Still working on my self confidence and loving my self.
 
I got a job and even though I don't make much, I don't spend any on drugs so I actually have more than I did before. I've been training really hard and eating really clean. I'm at a lean 200lbs right now, which was a goal I had set for myself 4 years ago. No more being 205-210 with some beer gut, some man boobs, and 17" fat-ceps (semi-large, but fatty biceps). Definitely no more running myself ragged smokin them oils. No more being too lazy to work out and eating junk b/c I'm baked. Yeah, I guess I've accomplished a few things since last September.
 
wow some great stuff in here :)

first of all being nearly 17months clean and sober.

stopped blaming and look at myself.

not so angry at the world.

can say i have achieved a level of inner peace.

working 4 days a week now in a job i really love.

got my drivers licence at 24.

doing cert 3 in youth work.

maintaining accomodation and paid rent since i moved in nearly 8 months ago.

was able to break up with someone i love because i wasnt being treated right.

didnt destroy myself because i felt hurt and rejected.

self confidence

=D
 
I got laid after many many years!!!!

I got back into college.

On the bad side: Back to drinking again, luckily it's in moderation for now.
 
Ive got a relationship with my son, With my parrents, I have a job at a rehab, Money in the bank, Ive got a wife, Ive got Dreams. All this in just one year clean. God is good
 
I got accepted into one of the best art schools in the country (in my second semester now, stressed out to the max but I get by :D)

That's about it really, school consumes me :\

edit: I also started working out after getting clean back in April and managed to put roughly 20lbs of muscle back on :D

I didn't wear the 'junkie look' well at all.
 
Managed to save 3/4 of my wages for the last 4 months for a massive overseas holiday coming up.

In that time haven't done any drugs bar smoking some pot at a music festival, once.
 
8ft-Sativa said:
Managed to save 3/4 of my wages for the last 4 months for a massive overseas holiday coming up.
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This is actually a big goal of mine, although being a poor college student with over a hundred grand in loan debt sorta makes that hard to justify :\

Some day...
 
For the first time in roughly a decade I have made it through over a month without wanting to kill myself. Which is pretty nice.

I'm teaching myself how to cook so I can eat better.

I'm doing yoga to get back into a relationship with my body after neglecting it for years.

I have come to grips (almost) with my failed engagement and am (almost) moving on.

2009 is going to be a big year. Meaning i'm optimistic for the first time in a long time :)
 
I really don't feel I've achieved much since getting out of Uni (summa cum laude despite all the drugs, but I've let my brain go to waste)

Sold my car & computer, never had a g/f, and I'm now $90,000 in debt (for one investment, was +$30k @ my best) .. But in retrospect I suppose I'm still doing better than ever; even tho I always feel one bad day away from unemployment, I recently got a raise, make more than ever, and my Supervisor loves me ..

Most days its hard to bsee the light through all my flaws / negative surroundings, but if I can stay alive with the same luck, I may just be very happy in the distant future :)
 
clean from the devils dandruff

got excellent grades in the first semester

but I still feel like a un-motivated slob like i was the past years..I absolutely hate every second of it.
 
I have a double-major BSc and an MSc at 24.

I've been to 17 countries and 4 continents (not parents money, I've worked hard).

I've lived in 3 different countries (not through family connections, my own imperatives).

Even though I blew a lot on drugs, I never dug into my mutual funds that I started at 18, after delivering newspapers for 6 diligent years.

I was an 8-handicap golfer between 12 and 14 and won a bunch of junior tournaments (okay, so parents pushed that one).

I recently gave up mdma/amphets and cut way back on drinking.

I have talked a couple people out of suicide.

I'm now back in a good place with my father, after having had a wedge driven between me and him as a result of a manipulative mother.

I have done a lot of volunteer work.
 
Found the love of my life 5 years ago. We've had some tough times but sometimes I still wonder how I was so lucky to find him.
Have been clean from Heroin for almost 6 months. Pretty sure I won't relapse. 99% sure.
Finishing up my 3rd semester in MA in Linguistics/TESOL program. Hopefully GRE this year then Speech Therapy School.
Mentally I'm better than ever. Depression, anxiety, PTSD are a fration of what they used to be.
I got my motivation back which was lost due my addiction.
 
eon_blue said:
This is actually a big goal of mine, although being a poor college student with over a hundred grand in loan debt sorta makes that hard to justify :\

Some day...
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I have a feeling this financial meltdowns going to be huge in six months and I'll probably lose my job. But that's when I'm going to take off on and go smoke weed on the white beaches in the gulf of Thailand.

I had to move back in with my mum to help with the savings and not smoking pot.
I'm only 22 though so it's no big deal living with the olds, plus I moved out at 17 years old so it's been awhile since I lived at home.
 
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every time i quit the only things i achieve are depression, desperation and epic failure in general, everything get much worse
 
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