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Ooh, sorry, that sucks ass. You might have to just ride this one out. Smoke weed, keep your renal pH low and keep fluids moving through you. That should help flush it out. Maybe smoke some weed and/or put on some chill music. I'm gonna say put on either Madvillain's Madvillainny or OK Computer by Radiohead.
Or maybe Radiodread (OK Computer) by the Easy Star All-Stars.
It was a rough ride and a pretty tough trip. I checked the bag today and what i took was closer to 100mg. Don't dose when intoxicated. I ended up having to take some benzos because I was starting too lose my shit. Even that didn't bring me down, had to take some seroquel.
It gave me some really disturbing thoughts, and the inner tension was very difficult. It was odd, i felt like it was finally wearing off, and then at midnight it starting surging back on. I could barely walk.
Some of the thoughts were particularly disturbing like into my mind popped the thought, "you know you are going to die by suicide, you might as well do it know". And it's probably true, I probably will die from suicide, not random emotionally driven suicide but self-euthanasia (if I were faced by a hopeless terminal illness or I'd probably euthanize by self).
However today I feel great, like my brain was reset. Which is astonishing because one of the benzos I used was temazepam, which always makes me feel absolutely miserable and depressed the next day. But today I feel better than I have in a while. Still, last night pushed my limits in a way that isn't worth repeating. I was pretty miserable.
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