ice-zephyr
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jun 28, 2010
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- 13
i feel like im spun out, rolling, tripping, disassociated or a combo of any of them depending on the toke. its like a drug russian roulette everytime i smoke
when i dont abuse it:
it gives me what i feel are "genius" thoughts. whatever i am doing, i connect with every other little event in my life. i get all types of genius revelations and thought processes. i break things down and analyze them...in a very abstract way. i will forget these thoughts if i dont write them down. it's a very good tool for introspection, analyzation and contemplation, but not for acting on those ideas and theories.
it also kills my desire to socialize. i still do, out of politeness, but i prefer to be alone and people interpret this as rudeness.(understandably).
when i abuse it:
it makes me emotionally flat. more of a body high. i don't give a shit about anything. eat eat eat. laze around. i don't realize how high i am and continue to smoke more. and more. i usually end up losing weight(due to appetite loss when sober again), and sleep more.
I feel like all of the negative energy in my mind follows the cloud of smoke out of my lungs as I exhale my first hit. My body relaxes, and muscle tension loosens. I can almost feel a tingling vibration creep through my body. As if I could feel the sound vibrations of a deep, low, hum: ohmmmmmmm...
The mind is downshifting. I'm operating on a longer wavelength...
The past and the future melt away. All of the energy that took form as reflection and aspiration, regret and anxiety, now dances and flickers in all the vibrant, subtle beauty of the present. The sights, sounds, smells, and feelings of the here and now. There's a visceral comfort in the whole experience. My surroundings envelop me like a protective cocoon. I love and trust my body.
I begin to let my thoughts meander. My mind seems like a treasure trove of knowledge about the endlessly fascinating world in which I live. I make new connections, and new ideas form. I feel empowered. I want to make the future brighter, and I can. I will. My love, my generosity, and my success will be an inspiration to others.
This is the ideal, introspective, solo stone. Not all of my highs are like this. Some are ridden with anxiety and paranoia, but luckily this isn't very common. Most are generally positive with some minor negative elements.