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What drug user (specific person) do you aspire to be like or look up to?

Slyvan wander: Thats fine but why you gotta "be like" somebody? why you cant just be yourself and be like you?

iunnow man just my way of seein it. nuttin against you
 
I don't look up to, or aspire to be RyanM, but he's definitely my favourite drug abuser. :D
 
Hunter S. Thompson, most definitely.

I want to travel the world all wigged out on drugs, and write about my experiences doing it. Gonzo journalism man, it's the greatest.
 
^Yep HST or the cook from spun, as altrez2004 said, i would be happy to have experiences even remotely similar to either.
 
Lacey, I see the people I listed as examples of drug users to be. To look at them instead of say...the guy with acid psychosis or the person who can't remeber there name because they smoke too much. These people are examples on how to be good drug users.

I do see your point though on being yourself. I don't really want to be a copy of any of them but they learned and searched for knowledge both about and with drugs. They were truth seekers who did drugs. I would like to be a truth seeker who did drugs.

(chime in 60's music, black lights, tie-dye, etc...)

I am going to be me, but their good examples on how to use drugs. I know if I hadn't been taught about drugs at all, I would probably be dead or addicted to something right now. (Although I am sure this is true for most people).
 
^Sure he gets blown up in the end but thats not what's really important about the cook. What's important about the cook is firstly that he manafactures meth and secondly that clearly he just goes around tweaking hard and doing whatever the fuck he wants but still keeps his cool and gets away with it (well till he's blown up).
 
If I was a girl I'd wanna be like Nikki from spun, cause the best part is " I'm not hooked!" xD I love her though, railing shit off the open glove box of a moving tweaker car, that's just core. I'm actually similar to Ross in that I'm the driver for my group of tweaker people and I'm always half deaf according to my friends, "What grandma?! NO I DON'T WANNA EAT LUNCH RIGHT NOW!". I've never left anyone tied anywhere to run missions but schoolwork tends to get left behind quite often. I don't think anyone actually aspires to die a hardcore Kurt Cobain death or incinerate their face and burn bitches with their pipe while smoking rock a la Richard Pryor, but I can understand the reverant "That guy's core" respect for extremem druggies.
Do all the little elementary kids sporting Kobe jerseys wanna be like him cause he rapes women or cause he took their sport of choice to an uncommon level?
 
^^ railling shit off ur car while ur driving on the freeway, i done that. >D my friend and i smoked out of a pookie too, during rush hour traffic. well, he did most of the smoking, i was drinking tequila, and i ended up throwing the rest of my bottle to these mexican dudes who kept staring at us smoking

steal my shit why dontcha
 
I look up to myself. To much pride I suppose. To much pride to use irresponsibly. To much pride to become an addict. (Pats himself on the back)
 
^ i dont think becoming an addict is a choice...

no one wakes up one morning and says: "Fuck it. you know what? im quitting my job, and taking up a daily heroin habit. I choose not to choose life."

Its a gradual process. takings years of responsible use in the case people and some people just seem to be a quick study.
 
ClubbinGuido said:
I look up to myself. To much pride I suppose. To much pride to use irresponsibly. To much pride to become an addict. (Pats himself on the back)
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and too much pride to admit you could someday be a addict maybe?

i know what youre sayin but if i learned anything in this shit, its that you say that like this: "i really really doubt it but you know what you never know."

you gotta have some respect for what you dont know man. karmas a bitch dont jinx yourself.

i look at it like this.even if you say you aint getin addicted, someday if you do at least you can look back and not hate yourself SO much for your naieve ness. your memory wont be of you sayin "ill never get addicted" at least you will be spared the irony cuz youll remember that you were humble enough to be aware of it.
 
^ Possibly not the best way of putting it but I get the feeling that he's deliberately moderating his use so that it does not become an issue and is making sure it will not happen at all costs, ie. He will lose respect for himself if he gets addicted, so is using that as leverage in not getting addicted so will fight urges to use more on that basis.

I had to do similar, when i was starting to use MDMA more regularly. I had a realisation that I was getting in the headspace that i could not go out without something in my system. It was against my principles to get in this sort of headspace so i started going out and stopped even drinking to get used to the idea of not needing anythign except good company and music for the best nights out.

I didn't want to lose my own respect, so did what i had to to get out of that headspace. That's my interpretation of what ClubbinGuido was saying. *shrug*
 
lacey k said:
And too much pride to admit you could someday be an addict maybe?
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I like that statement alot. Makes me think. What if I decided to throw it all away? I actually could become an addict if let go to my self dicipline and lost my self respect. But ozbreaker is correct in saying that I will not let it happen at all costs. I was into cocaine for a bit last may and I totally loved it. Loved it enough to know I would love it to death. I havent touched the shit since because I feared becoming addicted to it. I was heavy into the E for a bit. I started rolling like once a week for about 4 weeks. I felt like shit and was looking like shit, rolling takes a heavy toll on my body. Feeling like shit? LOOKING like shit? No way. I got to much pride in the way I look and feel. Vanity is a sin that nourishes me. Thats why I took a 4 month break, yet pills were just a drive away.

My pride gets in the way of everything even addiction. Its hard to explain. To become a slave to a substance, to anything for that matter, I just wouldnt let that happen. To much self respect and I got a big ego. why I moderate my usage. I like being able to stick my chest out say I can do so. Fuck, I just IV'd some scag last Sunday and got 2 bags stashed away. I aint touchin that shit for a month. I get off on being able to say shit like that. Not to mention I have respect for the substances I choose to put in my body. I cherish the way they can make me feel. It almost religious for me. Thats why I moderate my usage as well. Its such a special thing for me.

lacey k said:
Karmas a bitch dont jinx yourself.
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You had to bring up karma! :X You had to say that... Im an avid beliver in that shit... Lol damn you, like all I need is that statement floating around in my head.
 
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