i kind of admire john frusciante for getting so deep into heroin and coke... i wish they didn't get rid of a lot of the recordings he made around that time... the album he recorded is actually pretty bad imo and the only good thing is the live performance of "my smile is a rifle" at the viper room in L.A. but john frusciante is kind of an all over the place performer that does really random stuff. like the performance of "under the bridge" on saturday night live is pretty awesome.
i'm seeing kurt cobain mentioned on the first page.. i don't really have a lot of respect for him killing himself right after having a child, even if things were tough with courtney or he had health issues. i dunno. i know a jedi mind tricks rap lyric is "too powerful powerful for pain killers" and i think he was pretty weak and foolish to end his life like that. maybe he thought messing with his kid would be positive in some way. i really don't know. i don't think he was thinking correctly. i feel like he had so much money to do whatever drugs he wanted. like weed was getting really powerful around that time with indoor growing. i know in some early nirvana interviews he was smoking weed. they were talking about how they had a "aberdeen hard bud" or something on the table and one of their mothers thought it was funny to just crunch the bud and eat it, and that was a story one of them was telling. he could've just taken psychedelics and smoked as much weed as he wanted and weened off the heroin. i don't think he tried to over come his stomach problems... i thought i heard john frusciante saying he was bothered by kurts death.. when he got really into drugs was right after. i always wondered if that was his way of saying kurt was weak like I'm gonna get way more physically sick with heroin and coke than kurt, and then come back from it". i'm probably looking into that too much, but i wouldn't be surprised if that's an underlying theme.
i admire my own drug use and how i respond to drugs playing music and what not. i don't even think i'm the best, but i have some confidence with the drugs because i like what i do... i've have heard rumours about a lot of indie rock bands being into psychedelics and think that it's probably true from the lyrics... mostly i admire musicians and artists that use drugs... it's cool when people use drugs and just overcome their lives problems and feel better too though. not that people need to be artists.
