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What drug made you were addicted?

Mehm said:
I've been physically addicted to everything at one point or another. At the end of the day, quitting weed and alcohol has been the most difficult by far.
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This. Benzos and morphine/methadone were my worst addictions but even after being clean off them for an extended amount of time I still find it difficult to cut out cannibinoids and alcohol 100%.
 
The first drug I recognized being addicted to was Tramadol and then I had a brief period with cocaine, mostly because it was the first "real" drug I got into. As soon as I discovered "hard" opiates (oxycontin, phentynal, demerol, heroin) I forgot about cocaine completely.

Basically, opiates.
 
Draigan said:
If your H doesnt kill anxiety, then you are doing the wrong shit man. You shouldnt b feeling anything but half dream half awake, a warm cozy body, amd a slight sense of impending doom that doesnt matter because of how high you are lol. Perhaps your getting some fentanyl mixed h or something. Sorry for the lame pro drug sounding bs, just was curious that u said it doesnt take ur anxiety away. I HAVE NEVER HEARD THAT.

Weed was the first drug that I had a problem quitting. Smokes too I guess... Then when I was 19 I started on to opiates and I pretty much found myself wrapped in the paradoxical chains of the poppy.
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Gee, thanks for that newsflash
 
brasil said:
To me mari juana was the entrance, and then the other drugs ...
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I still like a smoke of pot , but 4 me that was the begining , i often wonder if i 'd never had that 1st smoke what might have been?
23 years later i've tried just about anything that's come my way.
When i discovered oppiates 15 years ago i can't really think of anything positive that has come from my addiction.
 
TheLostBoys said:
Of course you can have pshycological dependence on weed.

You must have been drinking some serious alcohol to get to the part where you have seizures if you dont have your drink. Only people I ever saw get like that were people that drank for over 20 years constantly.

Back in college, I hung around with a guy that sold coke to put himself threw college & I could have done as much coke I wanted for free, he use to get alot of coke & have coke parties but the 5 times I did coke, I never liked it, in fact I hated coke more than any other drug I ever did, including alcohol. The good part was the coke parties attracted some of the hottest chicks at the college, girls would do anything for nose whisky.
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That's what I said, Weed isn't physical, therefore, it's not as bad as an addiction that does become physical.

I was drinking 4 months straight everyday morning till night, throughout the night all mostly rum. Multiple litres in a day. Then suddenly stopped, you'd have a seizure if you did that.
 
From my experience it seems the 3 most habit forming substances are opiates, booze and benzos. For me it was opiates.

Granted when I got off opiates I'd do coke almost every other day and shove tons of other stuff into my body, but nothing got me NEEDING to be high like opiates.

There's just certain drugs that you get so comfortable taking and form such a strong connection with your pleasure center that when they finally get out of your system you need them like you need to breathe.
 
just reading thorough the thread. alcohol seems to be a really common one. I hate the stuff, it seems like if one drop enters my body within a day a litre of vodka and benzos will have joined it :(
 
percocet- first drug i ever illegally did. massive amounts of codeine vicodin percocet etc laying around the house after my mom had a series of surgeries on her knee during the winter. she had hundreds left over during the summer so i spent the entire summer in my basement. i got high 5-7 days a week and started smoking weed without skipping a single day when i ran out of pills. it was like from nothing to full blown addictive personality over bout 2 months. fuckin pandoras box
 
It all started with a single 5 mg. Vicodin legitimately given at an emergency room. I was 30 and had never had any addiction or drug issues, though I was (am) a smoker and long-time self-mutilator/suffered from depression and anxiety. I smoked some weed in college, and got really enthusiastic about it for like 2 months until I ended up having a really bad trip and never smoked green again. Never had a problem with alcohol and to this day can drink moderately and occasionally with no desire to overdo it or drink daily.

Two scenes from early in my 10 year addiction stand out for me: the first was on the way home from the ER on that fateful night. Driving through the twisty early-morning (like 3 am.) roads of Northern NJ about 40 minutes after I'd been given the single Vicodin and seeing a deer walking slowly across the mist-covered lawn of an old mansion...I felt an intense wave of pleasure mixed with a complete lack of anxiety the likes I've which I'd never experienced before. And I thought "Oh my fucking GOD let this never end...."

The second scene takes place only a few months later. By then I was being prescribed Vicodin for this and that (it was easy back then) and I recall a sunny, warm summer day, sitting on my bed with a good book and my cat curled up next to me, high on Vicodin and again feeling this unnatural intensity of pleasure and thinking "this is wrong; from this point forward, the simple SOBER pleasure of reading a good book in a patch of sunlight with a cat on my lap will never be enough."

Fast forward ten years. I've completely lost my 30's. Probably infertile by now, lost my chance to have kids. Lost a lot of friends (bec. drugs were my priority). Well, there's no point in counting out the things I've lost...it's infinite and unquantifiable.

I think I'm living proof that opiates have a special ability to "get to" people who would otherwise never have experienced addiction. I made it to age THIRTY as a normal-ish functional, job-having human being and one fucking pill changed everything for me. Fifty-four days clean today.
 
I can say I relied on cannabis heavily for over 10 years, but it was the benzos that fucked my life up good. I didn't even abuse them or get off on 'em, just used them "theraputically" if that's possible. Now my life sucks.
 
Dxm was probably the first drug that caused me to act like an addict. At boarding school I would get high on it twice a week on average. I introduced it to all my friends and they all loved it, and we'd get high on it all the time.

That was when people started considering me a druggie.

But then I tried hydrocodone, and the whole world came crashing down.
 
For me, what got me hooked was my pain management doctor.

Or, to be more specific, the fentanyl lollipops, Actiq.

For 2 years I was dealing with pain and getting scripts from my internist. I was taking oxycodone and I believed wholeheartedly that I was a non-addictive personality. I've smoked pot a few times, but made it to 30 without ever being drunk or ever taking a non-prescribed drug. Although I developed a high tolerance I had no "need" for the oxyC other than pain. When I didn't have pain, I didn't use it. I would end up with extra and eventually throw it out. I had no love for the stuff and no particular withdrawal symptoms.

Eventually my internist suggested I see a pain management dr. so things would be managed better. Ha! On my first visit he gave me fentanyl patches and lollipops. From there he moved me on to a higher dose of fentanyl with Fentora. That super-short acting stuff did me in. Since then he's given me more and more fentanyl, Opana, Dilaudid, and morphine sulfate.

I can't completely blame him for my current addiction. I just don't think he's blameless, either. I went in there wanting to take the least amount of drugs possible and he went on and on about how rare addiction really is and if I do get addicted then *shrug* they'll "just get me off it".

One thing I'm also a bit bitter about is how, whenever I research a new drug prescribed for me, I come across extremely angry, vicious and antagonistic people ranting about how "junkies" deserve to die and it's "people like (me)" that make it soooo hard for them to legitimately get their drugs. All of my drugs are as legitimately prescribed as theirs. And do they think I WANTED to be an addict?
 
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Well it'd have to be Neorganics (Australia 2009).... i liked all types and went full on addict! I'd tried every other drug you can think of (E, crack, speed, coke, acid, bzp and too many others to list),,, but this stuff had me from the first line!!
Lost wife, friends etc..... every 20 mins i'd scoop it up.
What's in that shit? I'd do lines in the toilet, sofa (when wife left for a few mins) anywhere, my workshop..... etc. I set up my workshop with music, porn and a strong lock to keep her out. I turned into a mad man only thinking about when and how i'll do my next line.
Telling the wife i had hay fever when i kept sniffing all the time. It lasted 1.5 years and i ended up with bad stomach problems from that shit.
Neorganics was also "off line" (unavailable) for a while and i ran out!! I ended up buying (what i thought it might be) Methydrone and Methylone from a dealer in the UK. Customs found it (i wondered why it never came!) and raided my house when my wifes parents were round to visit.
I've never stooped so low! I was a mess and if anyone out there thinks messing with things that are addictive is OK/cool... you're so wrong! Took months to get better and with the lose of the wife too made it 10x worse.
Know WHAT you're taking and if you feel compelled to take it again and again..... flush it down the toilet and move on.
It's not worth it.... only one life!
 
ActiqAnnie said:
For me, what got me hooked was my pain management doctor.
I can't completely blame him for my current addiction. I just don't think he's blameless, either. I went in there wanting to take the least amount of drugs possible and he went on and on about how rare addiction really is and if I do get addicted then *shrug* they'll "just get me off it".
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He seriously said that addiction is rare with the most powerful opiates known to man? This guy should be reported for doling out drugs like that... I remember when I was bad on opiates, I found out about one doctor in particular in my hometown (five hours away from school) and would make the trip to see him every few months.

He would literally say, "So how are you doing? Is this or that drug working for you? Would you like to try something stronger or raise your dose?" I could literally say, "This medicine isn't working for my legs. I've heard Oxycontin is good, can I try that?" And he would write it up for me right away. At one point I was on several different benzos, opiates, and amphetamines.

Unfortunately he's still practicing and basically running a pill mill. It also took months in advance to secure an appointment there because so many folks are going in to get drugs. I'm surprised local pharmacists haven't caught on to the fact that a majority of the prescriptions he writes are for hardcore opiates. I guess he might be in with several pharmacies too... I mean, they make money from it too.

It makes me sick to think about doctors doing this.
 
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