I would say Oxycontin. It hasn't like REALLY fucked me up, but compared to all the other drugs I use, it definitely has some power over me. It is basically fucking me up financially right now (but thankfully my boy is understanding of my unemployment and knows he'll get paid when i start my job). But ya, I've kinda been "hooked" per say on a bunch of drugs for short periods of time throughout my teenage years, but nothing has fucked with me like oxy. I'm used to going into withdrawals so much that I'm actually getting used to them lmao.
w/e, about a month and a half until I work...i'll get through until then.
Coke: I never had any self control with it. Id go through grams at a time only to be out of money and fiending for more. I was never satisfied which helped lead me down a bad road.
Opiates: Much like coke i had no self control with opiates. Not because the high was short lived and i was unsatisfied, but because they were so amazing i was never done. My DOC out of all the opiates was Oxycontin because it was clean (unlike the heroin we get out here on the west coast). I loved heroin but i never got extremely nice stuff, it was always dirty dirty tar that tasted and smelt like ass . Oxy's took a bite out of my wallet and my personality. I turned into the kid that would do anything for more oxys. Id rip you off even if we were best friends. Opiates turned me into something i never wanted to be. The euphoria just wasn't worth it. I couldn't control myself like i thought i could.
I somewhat feel like ketamine is taking a bite out of my life now, but not in the way opiates and cocaine did which is why i havent quit it, nor have i put it up on my list of "drugs that caused me the most trouble". Hopefully it will never be up on that list
cocaine caused me the most capital-T Trouble. sketchy situations, theft, debt, etc. But the nice thing was that after about three months of binging (after a year of regular use), I was done with it. had to borrow several thousand dollars to keep from being killed over a bad deal, flunked a semester of college and wrecked a relationship . . but it was all over fairly quickly.
and then there's pot, which i've been smoking daily for seven years or so. in terms of net expenditure of energy and loss of opportunities/time, it probably beats out coke. no huge problems stick out, but there have been so many times i've had to play catch-up on schoolwork or got stoned instead of doing something more interesting/fun/productive, or let skewed perceptions and complacency replace ambition and self-improvement.
opiates. .before i started taking them
I have drive to go places and do crazy things.
and i had the brian to back it up. . .
but when I started taking opiates I was like whats the point?
im content here.
But they got me threw high school
(I was serverly depressed and so I was failing out of school and had to be on independant studies for two years and then I found vicodin and oxy had got excited about life again so I graduated with my class and school. . . )
So idk its hold me back but pushed me forward.. . .
Life, loved ones, livelihood: Opiates. . .it tears me and my gf's relationship because we both use. Hospital medical treatments: none luckily. Police: E. . .almost got arrested but they let my off. THANK GOD! Society: Opiates. . .they have isolated me
I would have to say marijuana. It seems that the only times I've had any trouble with police is with marijuana. I also tend to over-do it a bit which has really impacted my grades and relationship with my parents. However, I'm in no way blaming marijuana, I know that these decisions are all my own.
Alcohol but I wouldn't say it's caused that much trouble but it is leading the way, I'm failry sensible with drugs on the whole, and careful to not get caught with them.
codeine, to tramadol to dextropropoxyphen to morphine to heroin buprenophine... now i'm at 1mg of methdone down from 90mg's... but its taken like 2 years nearly