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What do you wish people knew about you?

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Hey everyone!

My name is Adriana, and I'm a writer. I am very interested in addiction, and want to write an honest story about it. Right now I'm just in the research phase. So to start off, if you wouldn't mind me picking your brain, what do you wish non-drug users would get about you/addiction/drug use? What do you feel people get wrong the most?

Thanks so much for your help. :) I've been lurking around and learning a lot. My best wishes to those trying to quit--I sincerely believe it's one of the hardest things people can do, even though I cannot begin to understand the depth of struggling.
 
I am a heroin addict and have been for over a decade.
In all of that time I have never stolen from family, friends, shops basically I have never ever stolen anything at any time.
I have always worked full time and I pay for my habit using my wages.
I would like people to know that not all heroin addicts would steal from anyone and everyone for their next fix. Sure there are addicts that would do so but not all of us are like that.
Even when I have been dying for a fix and had no cash I still didn't go against my own moral code.
It is possible to be an addict and function as a productive member of society.
 
I wish people knew that I was a legend. Unfortunately, they'll only find this out after I'm dead and gone:\
 
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I'm (almost) 24, and I've been using heroin, cocaine, and many other drugs since or before I was eighteen (the heroin started at eighteen). I think that people in general have to get their heads out of their asses when it comes to drugs in today's society, because regardless of whether it's good or bad, it exists, and from my point of view, it will always exist. The "War on Drugs", is really a war on our brothers, sisters, parents and friends as far as I'm concerned. People out there are dying every day because they're not properly educated about drug's and harm reduction, and beyond that, due to prohibition, we have dangerously cut street drugs (most cocaine now a days is cut with a very harmful deworming agent, the name of which I cannot remember right now) which results in a lot of sick and dying people. Russia is a perfect example of this problem, where people are crudely synthesizing Desomorphine with codeine, using industrial compounds, iodine, red sulphure and a bunch of other nasty shit, all of which remains in the finished product "krokodil" which is then injected, leading to horrible tissue damage, amputation and death. And yet opiate replacement therapy does not exist in this country.

As for who I am, well I'm just another well read white kid that likes art, and fell into using hard drugs when he realized the world was not how he thought it should be. That's not an excuse, it's just the truth. I've done some dirt in my time, including stealing from my family and my friends, and I'm not proud of that. Luckily I still do have people in my life that have been willing to forgive me, and I just hope that I can be of some help to someone out there, somehow.
 
That I'm a person just like you, him or her. I just happen to use drugs but that doesn't make me less of a human being than you're. I live a pretty normal life and yeah I happen to slip up every now and then but I'm still me... I'm nothing different, it's just now I happen to self-medicate but if you ever find out I use drugs then you treat me as if I am nothing. You look down upon me once you hear the words drug addict. What happened to looking at me as a regular human being? Its crazy how someone can look at you one way and then if they're told you use drugs they will look at you in a totally different way.... Even though you were the same person you were before but now they know you use drugs and automatically they think you're some type of fuck up... But wait, wasn't I just me a few minutes ago? Why all of a sudden am I something less just because I use drugs? That's not right at all and I'm sick and tired of people treating us this way but sadly it will never stop. No one will understand how we're still people just like them and forever we will be looked upon as that fuck up who used drugs or that kid who could of been but they used drugs. Even if we get clean people will still look down upon us or maybe even treat us with less respect. Why? Oh just because we used drugs...
 
That I utterly despise people who don't inform themselves about drugs, thinking that hashish is injected into the eyeballs. And that exactly those kind of people take it upon themselves to dictate what I can put into my body without legal ramifications, all the while being hypocrites about their own drug use.

Outwardly, I play along, because I can't afford to be ostracized socially, but innerly every day is a struggle not to state my true sentiments on the matter. And I'm perfectly aware that this makes me a hypocrite as well, only adding to my inner conflict.
 
I wish they knew how it feels. Not that they try it, but that they knew how it feels. Because everyone knows how it feels, at least the big picture, it's pleasure, like sex, like after working out, like when someone hugs you, like when you eat chocolate.. like when you get high... People thinks it's some otherwordly stuff, but i don't think it's otherwordly at all, nothing is more down to earth than this.
 
Thanks so much, guys. Your perspective is really helpful. You're right; there is so much out there telling people that "junkies are losers," that drug users and addicts are thieves and can't be trusted. Like anything, I believe people fear what they don't know. From the media, we only hear about the worst cases--a drug addict has a psychotic episode and kills someone, for instance.

Do you feel that there is a line from drug use into abuse, and is it easy to see that line from where you are? For those of you who've crossed that line, when did you realize you had, in fact, crossed it?
 
maxalfie said:
I am a heroin addict and have been for over a decade.
In all of that time I have never stolen from family, friends, shops basically I have never ever stolen anything at any time.
I have always worked full time and I pay for my habit using my wages.
I would like people to know that not all heroin addicts would steal from anyone and everyone for their next fix. Sure there are addicts that would do so but not all of us are like that.
Even when I have been dying for a fix and had no cash I still didn't go against my own moral code.
It is possible to be an addict and function as a productive member of society.
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This! All of this!

My girlfriend and I do dope, lots and lots of dope, admittedly, but we have jobs, and we don't show up to work bombed or anything; we don't steal from family or friends, or from work, and we work for everything we get. If we don't have money, and if we can't get a front, then we don't get dope and that's the end of story. In short, we tend to our responsibilities first... and then we go get high. lol
 
I wish those who don't use drugs would understand that drug use is drug use is drug use, and it is MUCH more common than people may seem to think. Whether you drink socially, take benzos for anxiety, IV dope, take a Vicodin for back pain, you are using drugs. Sometimes this drug use is not "recreational, but it is drug use. A drug does not discriminate. I wish people would stop buying into the phony anti-drug propaganda that some people take as fact. I wish that using drugs would be regarded as a personal choice, and a civil liberty, and it shows no defecit in character. I wish people could understand that drugs can help. I wish people were less ignorant about drugs in general, that they knew the facts. And I wish people could just know the beauty of any certain drug for what it is, and accept it. Opiates and psychadelics are some of the most beautiful drugs, in my opinion, yet they are so unfairly demonized. There is more I wish for them to know, and may add to this later, but this is what comes to mind now.
 
Sure. But a non-drug user who is mostly naive to the scene trying to convey the thoughts and feelings of drug users, is going to do so very differently to someone who has experienced it themselves and articulates it from their own perspective.
 
Alex000 said:
Opiates and psychadelics are some of the most beautiful drugs, in my opinion, yet they are so unfairly demonized.
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In what way do you feel these drugs are beautiful? (Not being snarky, I'm honestly curious.)
 
nAON said:
Sure. But a non-drug user who is mostly naive to the scene trying to convey the thoughts and feelings of drug users, is going to do so very differently to someone who has experienced it themselves and articulates it from their own perspective.
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Absolutely. That's why I'm trying to get your perspective. :) I'm not doing a non-fiction book, which I do think is best left to those who have first-hand experience in the area of drug use.
 
How naive they are to the misinformation/propaganda around them. I just hate the ignorance. The amount of formal misinformation out there is insane.
 
This ^
Alex000 said:
Opiates and psychadelics are some of the most beautiful drugs, in my opinion, yet they are so unfairly demonized.
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Psychedelics are unfairly demonized, yes absolutely. But Opiates, imo, are generally evil even though theyre the most prescribes substances in the states. Ive had my share of problems with them and know theres an underlying evil with them thats insanely difficult to get out of, if not impossible depending on the person and their circumstances.
 
tweakyb said:
This ^

Psychedelics are unfairly demonized, yes absolutely. But Opiates, imo, are generally evil even though theyre the most prescribes substances in the states. Ive had my share of problems with them and know theres an underlying evil with them thats insanely difficult to get out of, if not impossible depending on the person and their circumstances.
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While I agree that opiate addiction is something that is insanely hard to get over, and unfortunately impossible for some people I've met (who died FROM heroin overdosages and/or related problems), I never find myself feeling as if opiates are actually evil, not in the way that I think cocaine/crack and crystal meth are evil. The argument that they are "natural" is kid of lame IMO, but that is sort of how I've always felt with my narcotic experiences. Opiates serve a purpose, I believe that, but we've fucked around with them to the point that we now have opiate-derived super drugs that are "evil". I watched this history channel documentary about drug use throughout time, and the conclusion was that the reason drugs have become such a huge problem in the last 200 or so years, is because we've lost a sense of ritual that used to (and in some parts of the world still do) accompany the consumption of certain drugs. I thought that was n interesting interpretation.

And when I say ritual, I don't mean throwing some smack in a cooker, drawing it up into a syringe and then flicking it twice haha...anyway, sorry I know I'm getting a little off topic here.
 
twato said:
That I utterly despise people who don't inform themselves about drugs, thinking that hashish is injected into the eyeballs. And that exactly those kind of people take it upon themselves to dictate what I can put into my body without legal ramifications, all the while being hypocrites about their own drug use
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Ever heard of the movie "Reefer Madness", talk about misconceptions, ouch! That thing is absolutely hilarious and hard to believe was ever "green-lighted" to be made.
 
Znegative said:
While I agree that opiate addiction is something that is insanely hard to get over, and unfortunately impossible for some people I've met (who died FROM heroin overdosages and/or related problems), I never find myself feeling as if opiates are actually evil, not in the way that I think cocaine/crack and crystal meth are evil. The argument that they are "natural" is kid of lame IMO, but that is sort of how I've always felt with my narcotic experiences. Opiates serve a purpose, I believe that, but we've fucked around with them to the point that we now have opiate-derived super drugs that are "evil". I watched this history channel documentary about drug use throughout time, and the conclusion was that the reason drugs have become such a huge problem in the last 200 or so years, is because we've lost a sense of ritual that used to (and in some parts of the world still do) accompany the consumption of certain drugs. I thought that was n interesting interpretation.

And when I say ritual, I don't mean throwing some smack in a cooker, drawing it up into a syringe and then flicking it twice haha...anyway, sorry I know I'm getting a little off topic here.
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Great post. And I cant agree more with the part I bolded, although personally I dont find Cocaine evil simply because I can control my use with it :)
 
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