what do you guys think

I've been thinking a lot lately and usually that's not good but this time I've been focusing on what I should be doing to get myself out of this spot that I put myself in.
I've been wondering if I had stayed in the drug rehabilitation centers/mental health centers for the full amount of time maybe they would have helped me more.
If I went back now it would just be more full to add to my sister's fire for me to not get my daughter back, not to mention I don't want to be that confined and alone again. It hurt so much emotionally to be in those places.
It seems like the best thing to do would be to take myself out of the picture for a bit until I'm "better". That way I won't run the risk of hurting my friends or family.
I'm just not sure what to do.
And they places I went to before I can't go back to..

 

You'll probably get more responses if you post in TDS (http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/forumdisplay.php?f=47). There is a lot more traffic in the main forums than Blogs.

Also, you will probably benefit by providing more info so folks can give better educated opinions.

If details are uncomfortable to provide, you could post in the Anonymous Thread (http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/forumdisplay.php?f=153). READ THE INSTRUCTIONS BEFORE POSTING THOUGH - most importantly is that you will need to log out first.

Also, keep in mind that the best way to avoid 'the risk of hurting my friends or family' is to first not hurt yourself. Change is fuckin' difficult but its like anything else that is new. Nothing is new forever so the comfort level will adjust and it won't be as hard as it first was