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What do I do? Jobless. friendless, helpless, hopeless....

Got myself a housewarming present: a nice green hookah.

Great place; $295/month all bills paid, including internet.

University neighborhood with all the benefits that accompany that. ;)

Plus one of those bunk-bed things with a desk underneath. Already got it arranged so I can lie on the futon (did I mention it was furnished?), watch a movie on the laptop on the desk, and smoke the hookah. :)

Chillaxin' Central!! =D
 
junctionalfunkie said:
I have not been gainfully employed in almost 18 months.

I was living in Austin, TX when I lost my last job (mainly their fault, sorta mine) in November 2008. I tried and tried to find a job but to no avail; it was the start of the recession, and there seems no end in sight.

My dad basically supported me for the following year, during which I still was unable to find a job. Eventually, he said: "Look, this is getting ridiculous. There are obviously no jobs in Austin to be had. Come up here (Minneapolis) and live with me; even if you can't find a job right away, at least you have a roof over your head."

So, it only made sense to do so, and what choice did I have, anyway?

So, I moved to Minneapolis December 28. For over 2 months, it was impossible to ever even go outside due to daytime temperatures of 20 degrees below\zero (F). Very few postings for jobs.

I was going insane when the spring broke, on the verge of Cabin Fever. My father was always a very difficult person to live with, but now that he is old and senile he is next to impossible to live with. Aside from the fact that his apartment is an absolute shambles (been there 15 years), he is regularly and disproportionately verbally abusive to me at a rate that seems to be increasing. I also don't have a single friend here.

I spent the past year in very effective psychotherapy that resolved many issues regarding depression, addiction, and general dissatisfation with my life. That progress is unravelling day by day living with my father.

Now, then... due to not having living expenses and strategically buying low and selling high, I have amassed around $4000.

What so I do?

1. Kill myself.
2. Find a cheap room for the rent in the Twin Cities (it really is beautiful in the summer). Keep looking for work.
3. Leave town for the short trip to Madison, Wisconsin.... which I've always heard is a cool town and spend the summer there.
4. An ex-girlfriend has invited me to come stay with her in Tallahassee, FL. This would mean leaving behind more possessions and spending the summer in the heat (ugh!) Not to mention the drama that may arise there. 8)

Anyway, thanks for reading all this. I'm really mainly depressed because I can't find a job to save my life and my old man is driving me fucking bananas.

-jf
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Let's go through all of the options.

1: I don't know you personally, but you seem like a reasonable person. You seem to be someone who still has a shot. Killing yourself would mean everything is over. It's not all over for you. I've considered suicide before. What would that have done? My family would be extremely upset. I would never find true love or get to raise children. I would never be able to say 'I accomplished something'. As corny as that sounds, I'm glad I still have the opportunity to do so. So don't kill yourself, because you can still help yourself out.

2: That sounds like a good idea. Try to live cheap. And obviously make sure you keep looking for work.

3: It sounds like a path to nowhere. I wouldn't do it.

4: That's just asking for trouble.
 
Oh, I missed your most recent post.

Congratulations, sounds like a great setup. 295 a month? Goddamn, that's good. Would be great to have something like that, instead of living with my insane parents.
 
junctionalfunkie, you've always seemed like a cool d00d; I hope things start looking up fast :).
 
Make some friends. It sounds like your ex girl friend isn't going to be verbally abusive towards you.

Deal with the heat, the cold is worse. :)

Think positively about your options in life. Therapy worked for you - that's great! $4,000 is quite a bit to begin a good life with. It's not too much, but it's enough for you to get settled and find a job.

Apply to jobs online, and always select YES I am willing to relocate. Follow work right now, and make the money you can.
 
junctionalfunkie said:
Got myself a housewarming present: a nice green hookah.

Great place; $295/month all bills paid, including internet.

University neighborhood with all the benefits that accompany that. ;)

Plus one of those bunk-bed things with a desk underneath. Already got it arranged so I can lie on the futon (did I mention it was furnished?), watch a movie on the laptop on the desk, and smoke the hookah. :)

Chillaxin' Central!! =D
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That is a CHEAP PAD. Is it like an efficiency or something? Do you shit were you cook?
 
Sounds like you've got a sweet setup. Glad things are looking up for you, man. :D
 
I can't understand why you give yourself such limited options. OK, 2,3 and 4 might work out, they might not. Option 1 is clearly stupid. But the most telling thing you said is that you've saved four thousand dollars! You're fucking rich, for God's sake! You can do anything you want!

If I had $4000 (or the equivalent in euros) I'd be falling over myself looking for extra options. Why don't you book a flight to South America and travel for a year? Why not go to california and take a surfing course for the summer? Why not learn a new language, or buy a car and fix it up new, then do a road trip? Why not do a jounalism course and get a job with a newspaper? Why not, why not, why not.

All the options you're giving are old: old girlfriend, old places, old news. Just think big and do something you've never done before, man. Friends will turn up along the way, they always do. Spend your money, live your life.

And buy your dad a present. He had to put up with you as well.
 
OK, I'm getting settled in nicely.

It's a TINY place, but perfect for me. Most inconvenient thing is there's no sink, but the bathroom is right across the hall. Also, climbing down a ladder in the dark of night whilst probably still a lil drunk can be tricky.

I'm starting over AGAIN, but it's a lot diffeent to do so with now almost $5000 in pocket, bills paid for the forseeable future, and no attachments or responsibilities. I could just hit the road tomorrow and disappear for weeks.

I'll keep you updated, BL. :) Thanks to everyone!
 
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