SirTophamHat
Bluelighter
bacon cheeseburger french fries ice cream
a concoction of barley hops water and yeast on the side
a concoction of barley hops water and yeast on the side
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What did you last eat, version four
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ilikestims
Bluelighter
peanut butter (freshly ground) + banana + organic slice of dave's killer bread (Blue)
RhythmSpring
Bluelighter
Salmon bone broth.
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Ex-Bluelighter
chicken burgers + banana smoothie
Dtergent
Bluelight Crew
Weird.
Had a Greek salad last night.
Been drinking coconut juice and tea. Think I'm ready to eat something solid this afternoon...
Dtergent
Bluelight Crew
A rösti. Seriously, countries with potatoes as their staple food are lucky. They are so tasty, you can't hull them or polish them, a little of them is so filling!
ilikestims
Bluelighter
Steel-cut oatmeal: six fruits (straw, cran, blueberries; mango, banana, kiwi); raw cacao; psyllium husk; nutritional yeast; flax seed; poppy seed; peanut butter (tspn)
Water + apple cider vinegar
Water + Spirulina
Water + apple cider vinegar
Water + Spirulina
StrandLoper
Greenlighter
Uh...picked at some chicken, nibbled a bit of sweet potato and a spoonful of sweetcorn. Ate a few squares of Swiss chocolate. Drank a couple of litres of mango 'juice'. Had a couple of pints of perry [pear cider--hard for US readers], about 5,3%alc. Took bunches of prescribed b vitamins and one 'complete' vits., minerals, and trace elements horse tablet: which was probably the bulkiest thing I ingested all day.
I realize my diet is not good, but when I'm alone i.e not in a relationship, or even sitting down with a friend, I have no enthusiasm fr food. Which is not like me, or not like me when I'm functioning properly, which in my case seems to entail being in loving relationship with a woman.
When I was married, I did the grocery shopping and cooking for my ex-wife and two daughters. I lived in Montreal then which is a foodie's delight. As my ex and my youngest had coeliac disease [gluten intolerance], we ate no processed food. I made gluten-free bread, pizzas, brownies, etc, as well as regular baked goods for myself and my oldest. We drank those huge demi-johns of spring water, not tap. I had a municipal garden plot where I grew all sorts of organic veggies, many of them 'exotic', as the garden was largely used by those newer immigrants who didn't have a garden. Boy, did I learn a lot about producing a lot of food from a small patch of land by learning from elderly vietnamese who couldn't speak a word of English or French! I pickled or froze what we couldn't eat. Bought fruit in season to make my own jam.
Now, I pick up something pre-prepared, often excellent, from the supermarket and nuke it.
I have pernicious anaemia [body can't absorb b12] which, among other nastier things, tends to take away your appetite: I have to have a shot of b12 every 3 months. It also tends to make one exhausted and lethargic, so I use stims regularly just to get up and move, which obviously doesn't help matters, but I used to eat like a horse when a healthy young tweaker. I'm also on the meth program. I was on 180mgs a day maintenance, and oddly enough got enormously fat! I could never figure out fat junkies like Elvis. But there I was on a mega-dose of 'juice' as bloated as the King, well not really but 5 stone [70lbs]
above my 'fighting weight'. I am6. 3, so I didn't look fat but I felt like I was wearing a fat suit! Horrible. I think I put the weight on by not exercising. I'm not sure. But I thought f""" this. Gave myself a 'yage cure' which killed the monkey for sure. But I'm still on 60mgs of meth a day, for one thing I have bad osteoarthritis, bad enough to keep out of work. So I'm in severe chronic pain and I'm even prescribed Tramadol on top of the meth which is particularly good for neuritic pain, I find.
Also, I've been diagnosed , since I was a teenager, as what is now called bipolar disorder [bipolar 1 to be precise!] and opiates are by far the best 'mood stabilizer' I've ever been on, while Sodium Valproate worked like a charm at stabilizing my mood, it stabilized it at clinical depression. Tegretol gave me hideous side-effects: I'd be cross-eyed [not good for a struggling writer] and staggering as soon as my morning dose kicked in.
So, there. All I need to pick up my appetite is to meet a lovely and loving woman, because without love one exists, one doesn't live. I adore my daughters and grandchildren. Never fell out of love with my ex...enough this is about food, but at five in the morning all I'd like to snuggle up to someone I love and just feel her heart beat and listen to her breathe...
I realize my diet is not good, but when I'm alone i.e not in a relationship, or even sitting down with a friend, I have no enthusiasm fr food. Which is not like me, or not like me when I'm functioning properly, which in my case seems to entail being in loving relationship with a woman.
When I was married, I did the grocery shopping and cooking for my ex-wife and two daughters. I lived in Montreal then which is a foodie's delight. As my ex and my youngest had coeliac disease [gluten intolerance], we ate no processed food. I made gluten-free bread, pizzas, brownies, etc, as well as regular baked goods for myself and my oldest. We drank those huge demi-johns of spring water, not tap. I had a municipal garden plot where I grew all sorts of organic veggies, many of them 'exotic', as the garden was largely used by those newer immigrants who didn't have a garden. Boy, did I learn a lot about producing a lot of food from a small patch of land by learning from elderly vietnamese who couldn't speak a word of English or French! I pickled or froze what we couldn't eat. Bought fruit in season to make my own jam.
Now, I pick up something pre-prepared, often excellent, from the supermarket and nuke it.
I have pernicious anaemia [body can't absorb b12] which, among other nastier things, tends to take away your appetite: I have to have a shot of b12 every 3 months. It also tends to make one exhausted and lethargic, so I use stims regularly just to get up and move, which obviously doesn't help matters, but I used to eat like a horse when a healthy young tweaker. I'm also on the meth program. I was on 180mgs a day maintenance, and oddly enough got enormously fat! I could never figure out fat junkies like Elvis. But there I was on a mega-dose of 'juice' as bloated as the King, well not really but 5 stone [70lbs]
above my 'fighting weight'. I am6. 3, so I didn't look fat but I felt like I was wearing a fat suit! Horrible. I think I put the weight on by not exercising. I'm not sure. But I thought f""" this. Gave myself a 'yage cure' which killed the monkey for sure. But I'm still on 60mgs of meth a day, for one thing I have bad osteoarthritis, bad enough to keep out of work. So I'm in severe chronic pain and I'm even prescribed Tramadol on top of the meth which is particularly good for neuritic pain, I find.
Also, I've been diagnosed , since I was a teenager, as what is now called bipolar disorder [bipolar 1 to be precise!] and opiates are by far the best 'mood stabilizer' I've ever been on, while Sodium Valproate worked like a charm at stabilizing my mood, it stabilized it at clinical depression. Tegretol gave me hideous side-effects: I'd be cross-eyed [not good for a struggling writer] and staggering as soon as my morning dose kicked in.
So, there. All I need to pick up my appetite is to meet a lovely and loving woman, because without love one exists, one doesn't live. I adore my daughters and grandchildren. Never fell out of love with my ex...enough this is about food, but at five in the morning all I'd like to snuggle up to someone I love and just feel her heart beat and listen to her breathe...
TweakFace
Bluelighter
Mac n Cheese yeahh!
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Ex-Bluelighter
porridge with strawberries
ilikestims
Bluelighter
two slices of PB & banana on organic bread; water w/ ACV
Pretty_Diamonds
Bluelight Crew
Hamburger, rice w/ GRAVYYYY!
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Ex-Bluelighter
porridge with strawberries and banana
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