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What changed about you and your life when you started using meth?

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Just curious as to what some things were that changed about you and your life when you started using meth? Like did your personality change, were you more outgoing? did people notice a difference?
 
A year of serious meth abuse ruined me more than 7 years of IV oxy/morph/heroin! It changed the way I think and the people I know who use have become completely fixated and their lives revolve around it.

I use every 2-4 weeks at most.
 
the_ketaman said:
A year of serious meth abuse ruined me more than 7 years of IV oxy/morph/heroin! It changed the way I think and the people I know who use have become completely fixated and their lives revolve around it.

I use every 2-4 weeks at most.
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Completely agree, I've been severely addicted to IV Meth and IV Heroin and it's not even comparable. Heroin is much more insidious and harder to shake, but meth fucking destroys. Like - on heroin, I keep my job and my life generally stays on track, it's still somewhat of a living nightmare, don't get me wrong, but it doesn't even come close to the hectic shit-storm that is daily meth abuse.

Haven't touch meth in almost 5 years. Doesn't hardly ever even tempt me any more, I even lived with an addict recently for about 1.5years and didn't touch it once despite it being used in front of me nearly every day.

Wish I could say that of heroin. Still though, I'd take a heroin/opiates addiction over a meth addiction any day. I'd also much (fucking much much much much) rather hang around heroin addicts them meth addicts.


edit: Though, I *DO*miss the initial rush of IV Meth. It's still my favourite rush, by far, haven't had a lot of experiencing IV'n coke, though I have tried it and speedballs, still I think IV meth is my favourite.. I wish I could just have that and not the 70 hours that come with it haha.
 
agree with poster above who said one year on it ruined his life more than other substances combined...

when i first started doing it i remember ppl commenting on my sense of humour being different, my outlook being different, etc., without knowing i was on meth. i definitely was different when it came to sex (sorry if that's tmi)...less about connection, more about intensity. even my taste in music changed when i got off meth (well mostly) in 08...i used to love indie music like interpol, maximo park, bloc party etc...and then when i stopped, it seemed almsot boring to me. not that it was, just that something in my brain wasn't clicking quite so well with those sounds.

as much as i once loved meth, i agree that i would rather deal with an opiate or heroin addiction, in its own way it is much more manageable...i can work double shifts, hang out with anybody, get shit done on opiates. as long as i'm not sick. but a few days on meth...or coming down hard and feeling like a basket case...ugh. never wanna face work in that kind of shape, ever again.
 
I've used adderall xr for a while and recently replaced it with crystal. i parachute several small doses throughout the day and smoke a single bowl at home after work/school. As long as I don't get carried away I am motivated, confident, and productive like on a good dose of adderall but with an amazing baseline sense of euphoria that keeps me cheerful. Work, school, doctor and family have not noticed any difference I'm me. I think I'm lucky to be able to sleep, due to the relaxed drowsy sensation a more concentrated dose gives me with ADHD(when I smoke my nightly bowl). I hope my tolerance does not begin to skyrocket creating some of the bad side effects. I would like to think I have this completely undercontrol useing only about a g a week, only on work/school days.

Who Cares what amphetamine I'm on as long as the medication works, right?
 
I stopped caring about my image, I stopped keeping in touch with family and old friends, I stopped keeping on top of my finances and I have maintained an erection for the last 8 years straight, yes it is getting annoying.
 
Everything changed. Meth twist everything and splits the soul. What is good is bad, what is bad is good. What sucks is you see all the change. But meth tricks you into thinking that the change is good. Then before you know it, you either embrace the change or have to fight to be who you want to be. Not who you use to be, that person is lost.
 
Only been using it for a couple of months, not common in UK. It has lifted me from the suicidal depression which has blighted my life for the last five years, allowed me to start being productive instead of sleeping or watching TV all day, got me painting, writing and enjoying myself even. I even sense a slight interest in sex... and had me dancing on Saturday nights. In short, has helped save my life... but that is me, and (I suspect) me alone. Please, please do not follow my example unless you are certain! It will no doubt end in tears, but that's fine by me, as long as I have some fun and laughs first.
 
Makes me extremely happy, sociable, energetic, and fun when tweaking or even slightly high I'm content, but when I crash and temporarily have no money for more, especially with no benzos or booze, things get really depressing and pleasureless for me, like just being a mind and body, no soul, like an android.

So it has made the highs in my life much higher and the lows much lower. I've tried to quit and go back to a moderate baseline but I can only ever make it a few weeks at most before I relapse, so fuck it, let's get high!

Oh, I've also stolen from friends, lied to family, mistreated authority, shoplifted, bought and resold, and done just general desperate things like having sex with whoever for money or not advancing my life as I should. Has made me look a bit older I think, and slightly more acne, but no real scars or anything.

On a positive note it has helped be very physically fit and attractive (helps you not eat so much and motivates you to exercise + boosts metabolism), lead to a lot of friendships with people I'd be too shy or anxious to approach and talk to otherwise, as well as some really good memories being the life of the party, the cool person, and having spiritual experiences with it.

But it has also lead to hospitalization in the form of psychosis and alienated me from some people who were good but simply didn't understand it or like me staying up for days on time eating nothing, then crashing eating all the food sleeping all the time and turning the place from super clean (I get really organized on speed) to a pigsty I simply have no energy to clean... and the withdrawal is horrible, you just can't think properly and while you don't feel sick, you just have no pleasure much or anything.

Would I recommend it? Personally I would not. I would seriously suggest sticking to coffee and cigs for stimulants, as these provide basically enough pleasure for those who need to stay awake or alert, without making you completely fucked without it. I mean even caffeine or nicotine withdrawal you might get irritable and stressed or low energy can't think straight etc, but not fully depressed and suicidal.
 
Long term, methamphetamine changed nothing about me mentally, but physically, I aged faster (dark circles under eyes) and some of my teeth are slightly chipped.
 
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