malfunkshun
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I haven't read through the thread but I'm sure a lot of people have described what withdrawals feel like, so what I'm about to say probably sounds similar to what others have said.
First off, you can compare withdrawals to the flu. Your nose runs, you sneeze a lot, and your body and head aches. If withdrawals are particularly bad, imagine having the flu and food poisoning at the same time as you'll be throwing up a lot and have diarrhea. Those are just the most basic physical aspects.
In addition to what I described, there is also a profound feeling of anxiety and 'nervous stomach'. When going through WD's, I feel jittery, like I want to jump out of my skin. Sometimes I'll convulse slightly with involuntary muscle movements; usually my legs will kick or my shoulders will tense up. Sleeping is impossible, and it is typical to experience restless leg syndrome when lying down. Taking benadryl to try to sleep only increases restless leg in my experience. Virtually nothing will help you sleep except for more opiates or a good dose of benzo's. It is impossible to get comfortable when lying down - I've found that the most endurable position is just lying flat on your back. I feel like I have virtually zero energy, and the simplest chore, such as walking to the kitchen to get a glass of water, is like dragging a ball and chain behind you. Just the thought of actually doing anything is exhausting. Going to work while withdrawing, to me, is unthinkable. Riding in a car for a long distance is like torture as you don't have room to move around at all. For some reason this is almost unendurable for me.
One very strange aspect of withdrawal is that you get hornier than a motherfucker. I've never had sex when going through withdrawals, but I hear that it helps. However, getting yourself off eases things up for about one minute afterwards, then the WD's come back full force.
Depression is a strong aspect of going through withdrawals, both during the physical part and after. During one particularly bad withdrawal period, I was on the constant verge of breaking into tears. I felt just as bad mentally as I did physically. I wanted to die.
Even after explaining it in detail like that, it still doesn't really come close to making it clear what it's really like. All I can say is you don't want to have to deal with a severe case of withdrawals. It is hell on earth, and that's coming from a person who hasn't even had REALLY bad withdrawals... like some of the people here who have gone cold turkey off of a really hard core heroin habit. I can only imagine that those kind of withdrawals are about 10 times as bad as the worst ones I've ever gone through, and I really wouldn't wish my worst experience on anyone. It's just cruel.
First off, you can compare withdrawals to the flu. Your nose runs, you sneeze a lot, and your body and head aches. If withdrawals are particularly bad, imagine having the flu and food poisoning at the same time as you'll be throwing up a lot and have diarrhea. Those are just the most basic physical aspects.
In addition to what I described, there is also a profound feeling of anxiety and 'nervous stomach'. When going through WD's, I feel jittery, like I want to jump out of my skin. Sometimes I'll convulse slightly with involuntary muscle movements; usually my legs will kick or my shoulders will tense up. Sleeping is impossible, and it is typical to experience restless leg syndrome when lying down. Taking benadryl to try to sleep only increases restless leg in my experience. Virtually nothing will help you sleep except for more opiates or a good dose of benzo's. It is impossible to get comfortable when lying down - I've found that the most endurable position is just lying flat on your back. I feel like I have virtually zero energy, and the simplest chore, such as walking to the kitchen to get a glass of water, is like dragging a ball and chain behind you. Just the thought of actually doing anything is exhausting. Going to work while withdrawing, to me, is unthinkable. Riding in a car for a long distance is like torture as you don't have room to move around at all. For some reason this is almost unendurable for me.
One very strange aspect of withdrawal is that you get hornier than a motherfucker. I've never had sex when going through withdrawals, but I hear that it helps. However, getting yourself off eases things up for about one minute afterwards, then the WD's come back full force.
Depression is a strong aspect of going through withdrawals, both during the physical part and after. During one particularly bad withdrawal period, I was on the constant verge of breaking into tears. I felt just as bad mentally as I did physically. I wanted to die.
Even after explaining it in detail like that, it still doesn't really come close to making it clear what it's really like. All I can say is you don't want to have to deal with a severe case of withdrawals. It is hell on earth, and that's coming from a person who hasn't even had REALLY bad withdrawals... like some of the people here who have gone cold turkey off of a really hard core heroin habit. I can only imagine that those kind of withdrawals are about 10 times as bad as the worst ones I've ever gone through, and I really wouldn't wish my worst experience on anyone. It's just cruel.
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