What can I do about this? Please help me!

[deadendgame]

I am a 24 yo male with possible paranoid schizophrenia. I constantly believe that people are out to kill me and that I may die at any time. That is why I can't focus and can't relax which gets me into trouble with almost everybody. I am also experiencing physical symptoms which are inability to relax, burning headaches, and agitation. My cognitive function is compromised and I am losing the ability to read/understand speech. Possibly motor skills are affected as well. Easy things have turned tremendously hard. I saw many psychiatrists about this and have been to a hospital. I'm not saying mental health professionals are quacks, but there is really little they can do to help me. All they're gonna do is lock me up in a room and give me meds, but I'm still going to have those paranoid feelings. At this point, I only have two options, to kill myself or get brain surgery. Everyone I talked to about this either don't understand and/or underestimate the severity of my condition. Any helpful advice here? Please don't say "get help", "check yourself in", "you can fight through this" or "you're going to hell". No kind of "help" is going to fix this and I'm not religious. Time is ticking and I have to off myself as fast as possible.

 

[herbavore]

Will Hall is a person that you may be interested in. He has schizophrenia, calls himself a 'psychiatric survivor' (meaning that he survived a system that not only did not help but hurt his healing) and he frequently gives talks and shares resources. I know that he does do some phone consultations and may be able to connect you to resources in your area outside of mainstream treatment.

Also check out The Icarus Project

While I do not underestimate how desperate you feel to escape from your thoughts, I would urge you not to give up on the possibility that they can indeed change. I do not believe that you have to die in order to escape. Give yourself some time to explore things that you may not have tried yet. Getting locked up and overly medicated is not the only thing out there.

 

[dilated_pupils]

herbavore, very inspiring post!

I think with the right amount of time focused on healing you can do it deadendgame! I struggle with a lot of issues from stimulant use/abuse. I constantly feel like blaming someone else, like this isn't me and that one day someone will just appear and take the pain away. I try not to associate with the social agenda of labeling myself and needing medication. I haven't found relief from any medications what so ever in my life and only found my despair to grow while trying SSRI's and such. I think we are taking mental health completely the wrong way and do not tune into our environmental changes as much as we should - there is a personal relationship you need with yourself out of everything that needs to get better. You can be guided there and know that we all want you to live a great life. No one is cheering on failure.

Have you attempted to trace back the feelings you're having about people trying to kill you and such to the source? I know it may be painful but opening up to why these things are occurring may help you see that it's not as bad as it's been made out to be. For example, maybe you feel some type of resentment towards another individual who made a comment like "I don't really like you today." and it just spiraled out of control. You need to bring your emotions up so people are aware of what they did/said made you feel bad. Even if they do not reciprocate just saying something should help you eliminate the tension that built up.

I wish you luck and hope you are able to build a wonderful life.

-dp

 

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