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What are your current unfulfilled sex fantasies?

FacialFan88 said:
May sound kind of tame, but I'd enjoy masturbating to completion with my wife. I think that would be fun but unfortunately she desires my dick 99% of the time.
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What a travesty..... lol


My fantasy is to make a hot video. Actually it would be silhouettes, I have a blue tooth projector that displays onto a wall or sheet or wherever. We started fooling around one night and things got super hot n steamy trying several different positions. At one point we ended up in front of the projector light and as I was bent over I looked over my shoulder and caught our silhouettes and just seeing that made me cum instantly. I'm trying to convince my lover that we need to do that while recording it. (Well I was convincing him, until our recent spat)

But yeah I think that would be sexy.
 
Just regular sex with a cute girl I am attracted to and somehow get to like me. Also - picking her up in a cute way, not like at a bar or party or anything as I don't go to those. Not under the influence either apart from being energized and euphoric from the heroin or oxy as usual; just like a random sober encounter that turns into something special out of the blue. Picking up on her subtle cues to flirt and for once not blocking them out. No stupid fucking text messaging - just asking her out on a date and going on it. Having her not care about my shitty life situation and broke bank account and just liking me for my positive characteristics like my sense of humour and good looks. Just real connection without any bs.

Something innovative, unique, that will make me proud of myself for growing some balls. Really, I guess you could say the health food store chic... I think about her a lot. Since I am really into nutrition too. I had this whole idea to talk to her about this book I am reading about the future of the global food economy (since it is pretty relevant to her work), seeing if she would like to borrow it (I know that she would), and then leaving her a nice note on the first page (or perhaps the last... yeah def the last page, more of a surprise) including my name and number expressing my interest in her, but not coming across as desperate (I'm fulfilled in a way by the dope anyway), just leaving it open for her to act if she wanted to and specifically mentioning a date. Then hearing back from her and eventually getting laid in a completely no-frills type vanilla way. I am just too shy to do stuff like that though. Couldn't even talk to her last time I went in. I am full of ideas like those but they always pass me by as unfulfilled fantasies, and it results as a form of accumulated trauma from what I perceive as rejection, but is really just my own insecurity and burnout. No confidence at all in any respect anymore... unless we are talking about my ability to pound sedative drugs (not pussy anymore, not for several months anyway), cook delicious creative food, grow good dope (lost everything so I can't do that either anymore), or play my guitars. At least I can still play my guitars pretty well.

I'm far too lonely to be thinking of too much kinky stuff right now and had enough fun with my ex girlfriend in that regard as she was very submissive natured and I pretty much did everything I wanted with her. I guess I never messed around with using blindfolds on her much, just leashes and handcuffs and stuff which we had fun with. Made lots of hot little videos that we watched together after. Sex in cool spots like playing in the woods, or in the lake, or on the side of the highway in the bushes. I guess I always wanted to be sucked off by two girls at once, one whom I was already seeing and one who was her friend. The only thing I'll be picking up these days is my shit at the pharmacy. Oxycodone substitutes as a girl in my life. It satisfies my body in similar ways, but leaves my subconscious tormented by loneliness.

I'd like to completely start my life over and fuck all the girls I wished I had fucked instead of letting life pass me by single. I guess that is my real unfulfilled sexual desire, to know and understand the opposite sex, the other half of my species which I know hardly anything about - but it is too late for that now. I am an old washup that wasted my life.
 
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ShroomySatori said:
I had this whole idea to talk to her about this book I am reading about the future of the global food economy (since it is pretty relevant to her work), seeing if she would like to borrow it (I know that she would), and then leaving her a nice note on the first page (or perhaps the last... yeah def the last page, more of a surprise) including my name and
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1st pg ....!!!!!what if she's super busy and didn't finish reading the whole book????

And you are never too old and washed up, here's a true story:

I'm 5'9" thin, blonde with blue eyes. I weigh 132lbs right now. 42 yrs old. I have 4 kids. My body looks like I have zero. (Yes I'm proud of this, its genetic though ) but I'm my late 30s I was feeling old, very old and mundane. One day, looking in the mirror and not seeing the life in my eyes, I got really angry and decided to do something different. Something I'd never done b4.... since my physique was due to genetics I never had to work at it and I decided to start eating clean and working out just to see if it would change my outlook mentally. It did, all of a sudden I was building muscle and literally sculpting my body. I was doing pull ups, box jumps, running marathons (I built up to this ofcourse)... I had a renewed energy for life. I felt fucking amazing and I swear to God I looked better at 39, 40 then I did in my teens and 20s. I was like wtf....I'm beast. I get carded to buy cigarettes still today. I had so much life in me. More alive than EVER BEFORE. So my point is, you're not too old. Once you put your mind to something, and stick to it.... incredible things happen
 
Today all I want is:
While I'm rubbing my clit, my bf to slide his finger in my ass slowly,while fucking me and sucking on my nipples.

I'm super horny, wet as fuck and he has opiate dick so I'm never getting laid. Gggrrrrrrrr and I don't just want to get fucked, I want to be fucked BY HIM!
 
Broken74 said:
Today all I want is:
While I'm rubbing my clit, my bf to slide his finger in my ass slowly,while fucking me and sucking on my nipples.

I'm super horny, wet as fuck and he has opiate dick so I'm never getting laid. Gggrrrrrrrr and I don't just want to get fucked, I want to be fucked BY HIM!
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So did you get lucky after all ???
 
No, it doesn't work.... but he is definitely in withdrawals right now. Severe body aches, sweating, cold, it started with sniffles. I know he wants to get clean, but tomorrow is Monday and I'm afraid he will be diving in full force after how he felt today.
 
Broken74 said:
No, it doesn't work.... but he is definitely in withdrawals right now. Severe body aches, sweating, cold, it started with sniffles. I know he wants to get clean, but tomorrow is Monday and I'm afraid he will be diving in full force after how he felt today.
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Damn that sucks
 
Broken74 said:
1st pg ....!!!!!what if she's super busy and didn't finish reading the whole book????

And you are never too old and washed up, here's a true story:

I'm 5'9" thin, blonde with blue eyes. I weigh 132lbs right now. 42 yrs old. I have 4 kids. My body looks like I have zero. (Yes I'm proud of this, its genetic though ) but I'm my late 30s I was feeling old, very old and mundane. One day, looking in the mirror and not seeing the life in my eyes, I got really angry and decided to do something different. Something I'd never done b4.... since my physique was due to genetics I never had to work at it and I decided to start eating clean and working out just to see if it would change my outlook mentally. It did, all of a sudden I was building muscle and literally sculpting my body. I was doing pull ups, box jumps, running marathons (I built up to this ofcourse)... I had a renewed energy for life. I felt fucking amazing and I swear to God I looked better at 39, 40 then I did in my teens and 20s. I was like wtf....I'm beast. I get carded to buy cigarettes still today. I had so much life in me. More alive than EVER BEFORE. So my point is, you're not too old. Once you put your mind to something, and stick to it.... incredible things happen
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Broken74 said:
1st pg ....!!!!!what if she's super busy and didn't finish reading the whole book????

And you are never too old and washed up, here's a true story:

I'm 5'9" thin, blonde with blue eyes. I weigh 132lbs right now. 42 yrs old. I have 4 kids. My body looks like I have zero. (Yes I'm proud of this, its genetic though ) but I'm my late 30s I was feeling old, very old and mundane. One day, looking in the mirror and not seeing the life in my eyes, I got really angry and decided to do something different. Something I'd never done b4.... since my physique was due to genetics I never had to work at it and I decided to start eating clean and working out just to see if it would change my outlook mentally. It did, all of a sudden I was building muscle and literally sculpting my body. I was doing pull ups, box jumps, running marathons (I built up to this ofcourse)... I had a renewed energy for life. I felt fucking amazing and I swear to God I looked better at 39, 40 then I did in my teens and 20s. I was like wtf....I'm beast. I get carded to buy cigarettes still today. I had so much life in me. More alive than EVER BEFORE. So my point is, you're not too old. Once you put your mind to something, and stick to it.... incredible things happen
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I finally grew some balls and talked to her today. Finally! I was on oxy's and a xanax but still. I never have the balls, at least now I know that I tried my best. She is a really cute and sweet, very health-oriented looking blonde chic who has immense knowledge of nutrition and seems very kind and mellow. Anyways, we chatted for like half an hour, mainly about health and nutrition but definitely broke the ice. I didn't ask her out or anything but she's always around there, and I know her name now. So maybe next time I will bring up the book (1st page, I agree). I think it is a nice, low-pressure way of going about it that leaves things open on her end and also discreet since she's at work.

I can't work out at all like I used to before my back injury, I don't work out at all due to my chronic pain, but I find that I am more alive than ever before too (just a lil bit crazy). Unless you consider selling my soul to the devil for pain relief and essentially having part of my soul locked up in a Satanic Hairy Potter-esque Voldemort pill-and-dope horcrux. I praised Satan before heading over there while listening to hardcore devil-music and I got $50 in sales while spending $20 on all the healthy foods I like (some sort of cosmic, benevolent spiritual force is certainly on my side today... or maybe just the devil). It is hard to say as I threw holy water everywhere the other day too and blessed myself to protect myself from a malicious spirit I saw. Gotta stop reading into that shit before I lose my mind to the point of no return. I have a very clean diet apart from the dope so I think it has to do with that, why I still look and feel very healthy as a long term addict, and various mindfully selected nutritional supplements and zero alcohol ever, one of the most toxic drugs in my view, and no stimulants stronger than green tea - but also I am focussing all of my time on guitar now and that has given me something to live for. I am proud of myself that I could hold a conversation with her for so long when I have been intimidated for weeks by how attractive she is. Really proud of myself considering I am normally a shy pussy.

No idea why it's quoting you twice.
 
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Shroomy!!!! YES!!!! That was the hard part, now the ice is broken and you build from there!!! Glad to hear you are feeling a bit more up these days ?
 
^lol, it is sad but true. I bought the type of condoms I normally get when they were on sale a month back to feel better about myself, although I knew I wouldn't be getting laid anytime soon. Still sitting around unopened. I am so fucking desperate ahaha. At least on pills I'm not longer depressed or feel too much back pain.

Broken, I seem to have broken the ice. Thanks for the encouragement. Was pretty happy with myself that day. I can start talking to her more now, and bring up the book (with my cute lil secret note inside). I am reading it myself today. She might not even be single but someone eventually will be. I told her to have a nice weekend when I left and it was a Tuesday... so I already can joke about my dumbass self next time I see her. That is cool actually... I already have something funny to say next time. I think if she is laughing it is a good sign maybe. She was probably like who the fuck is this strange creature, being that the week just started. I think my mind was a tad distracted maybe ; ) - When I left though, was like oh shit what fucking day it is?? Thought it was Friday.

She knows I am out of work due to chronic pain issues but I don't think that matters much because she seemed really sympathetic about it (I was getting some health supplements related to that... mainly anti-inflammatories... and gelatinized maca root powder to try and save my limp opiate dick, which isn't too too bad, and I don't really want it to be up and running full speed at the moment). I feel sorry for the poor girl if she somehow falls for my silly tricks.

This seems to happen better when nothing is on my mind and I am just in the moment instead of actually trying... helps that I'm back on the oxy's as I am happy again and not stuck in my thoughts. The oxy's definitely help and are very much needed right now. Nice side effect of chronic pain treatment. I have had much kinkier fantasies in the past but this vanilla stuff is all I want right now. Being a little dope fiend and all I just want to get her in bed and have fun and that would be great. I think the oxy's calm my sex drive self down enough so that I just desire regular sex instead of going all out, at least for now.

So I won't step foot in a health food store these days without first popping at least 40mg oxycodone and a couple 1mg xanax's... alright, now I am personally laughing out loud at myself. Fucking hypocrite! Couldn't stop myself from grinning ear to ear presently if I tried... this is just too fucking funny shit to me right now - believe me, I've tried and I can't stop giggling. Such a sad, lonely creature, so very sad... alrighty I am picking up my guitar before I embarrass myself any further than I already have.
 
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^You haven't embarrassed yourself. Social stuff is so fucking weird for me too. :)

I've been on opiates steadily for the last month, codeine a few times a day on at least 5 days a week. Stupid really but its reduced my normally ridiculous sex drive. Not so pleased is my girlfriend. I'm actually looking forward to the rebound horniness. :D
 
Oh, I am an alien when it comes to this shit. I'll take the weakened opiate dick over the no-idea-what-to-say-or-do-even-though-I-like-her-then-get-angry thing I have going on.

This seems to be an ubiquitous predicament in the modern day world - girlfriends getting pissed off at us lil junkies losing our sex drives, then getting extremely horny coming off the stuff. I am trying to find balance where I am only somewhat numb, so I can last long and still be somewhat high... seems like a win/win scenario to me... we'll see if it works out... it's doubtful. It's either superhorny 15-year-old boy style, or no desire/no functionality/asexual/not happening style.
 
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Well, good luck. Putting yourself out there is difficult and challenging but practice makes perfect! What's the worst that could happen?

At times, a lit of the time, I prefer drugs to sex. But sex on drugs, good drugs is fucking boom :)
 
Well, I ended up giving her the book with a note inside. Now, I am extremely anxious and nervous. I cannot even look at my phone, I am petrified. I had to do it, I'm very attracted to her. But I feel like, I don't know, there are just so many things that could go wrong. I can't even look at my phone, I am stressed to the MAX. I need some serious xanax's and especially oxy's today, maybe even heroin. Can't look at the the phone having done this, I don't want an 'Im sorry not interested' text it is honestly freakign me the fuck out like fucking crazy insanity. Fuck. I got there all the time and I'd have to stop going because I couldn't handle seeing her. I am freaked the fuck out to the fucking max. I would have been better off just sticking with the drugs tbh.

I wish I never did that. I'm panicking hardcore now. Can't even look at my phone... this is just a nightmare. The little rhyme I wrote was straight for my heart. I'm so fucking nervous now I can't think straight. Need drugs. Drugs drugs drugs. I really wish I had remained a pussy. Fuck, I need drugs to calm down after doing that. I am so damn nervous and I don't know if I can deal with rejection. Never tried so hard in my life with someone. I am just nervous and I don't know what to do if I get hit with rejection Fuck. Why did I even bother trying??? I am an idiot, seriously, I go there all the time and I am going to be too nervous to ever go back if I fucked up. I was up all night writing her a poem. I tried so damn hard but I m BEYOND nervous. I nee a lot of oxy right now. Like a lot. I never ever should have done that it was really stupid.
 
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Easy tiger, calm down... I used to fear rejection myself, until I had a phone sales job. Omg that will cure anyone. 500 calls a day and to be top rep only 10 sales. 490 rejections you become numb. Either way, you look like a charming guy at the worst.

Btw... my fantasy has been fulfilled. I love recovery process. Haha ... I told him to wake me up any time and all the time. I missed him so much!
 
My favourite unfulfilled sex fantasy at the moment: I would like to watch my boyfriend pee. Sounds lame, and I don't want him to pee on me, or splash it around and stuff, he just makes the most sexual noises when he goes, I sit there listening and getting horny!
 
^Are you sure he's peeing?? ;)

My first girlfriend (we were teens) wanted to watch and hold me whilst pissing. I didn't get it, still don't, but I allowed it.
 
^ That's why I want to watch. To make sure;).
I don't get it either, really. Maybe it's part of my fascination with him. Sometimes I pick up his hand, examine it briefly, sigh and let go. Amongst other things. It's unreal, I mean I'm 45, it's not like he's my first or anything.
 
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