Craving nice blotter acid, 10 pack of x, qp of nice weed, a cute little vial of coke, a few small bumps of k... a plush hotel suite on the beach and good company.
Was WDing a bit and had really fragmented sleep, but vivid dreams when I did. In the last dream I finally gave in and decide to go pick up some bags. There was a great feeling of relief because I knew the WDs would soon go away and I'd get nice and high.
Then I woke up and realized it was a dream. Ever since Dream Me gave the go ahead, I've really wanted to get some H. One great shot
Oxycodone, oxycodone, oxycodone, oxycodone, oxycodone, oxycodone, oxycodone, oxycodone and... hmm... maybe some oxycodone to go with it for good measure. And some oxymorphone/Opana for some variety. %)
Oh, and Xanax and cocaine and really nice cannabis.
What's going on, DC? I've been sort of missing in action... it's the girlfriend's birthday week, and, well, we've just decided to do dope all week long.
We took a break yesterday and stayed in bed all day, but today... yeah, I think some more dope would do us nicely. Gonna pick up the check in a bit, cash it, and go score.
Money, money, money... Oh wait that's not a drug but I'm craving it I'm also craving some heroin and oddly some crack would be nice right about now too. I mean I want some but doesn't mean I'm going to have any lol
Every time I quit opiates it's almost like my brain and body has forgotten how to 'click' over into sleep mode. It seems to have gotten worse each time I've quit over the years. At least my body doesn't hurt anymore and I'm not constantly cold. I am just so freaking tired, but there is nooo way I could sleep right now.
I fully envision myself becoming exhausted enough to fall asleep around 10-11am, except I have to leave for school at 1pm. Though going to class in zombie mode would still probably yield better results than last week when I stupidly shot a second bag even though I was already high. This was before a test, and I was supposed to look over my notes beforehand. Instead I nodded out in my car and then realized I was going to be late for class. Then I went and tried to take this test. I say tried because has anyone ever tried to read when insanely high on opiates? Doesn't work out so well. I just kept nodding out until I was the only one left taking the test....and it was still blank. Not looking forward to getting that test back lol
I just want a pack of newports. I'm dead broke right now till thursday... Literally have $2.23 in my bank acount lmao and five dollars in change but I don't feel like going to pay for something in all quarters, dimes and nickels lmao. Ughhhh.
I've got to go to school soon, which is right near where the dope man is. I'm not bringing money because I don't want to get anything, but I am so fucking tired right now that a small shot would be fucking perfect.
Most of my morning has been spent sitting and staring at things, completely zoned out
Craving my dope. Day 6 of being clean and I got my paycheck yesterday (the first time since getting clean) - I am trying really hard to control myself. I really don't even know what to do with the money I have now....