Something to calm my ass down some. Heroin? Xanax? Opana? Weed? I don't know, man. I just need this war in my head to cease to exist for a little bit. I'm not asking for much, just an hour or so.
...Fuck. I'm in such a shitty place mentally. I wouldn't wish the way I feel on my worst enemy. & I definitely wouldn't want them to handle it the way that I do. By fucking running away from it all, and drowning out my pain and problems in the bottom of a pill bottle. Or in the creases of a foil pack. I can't remember the last time I was truly calm. Sad, really. Fuck. Maybe I should go to #TDS. =x