im craving some adderall or anything that will help me get this school work done. Fuuuck i just want to get super stoned or drunk but I did that last night and then woke up feeling like shit because I did that instead of the work i was supposed to do.
I can definitely say that I take my Alprazolam for granted in a way that's much different from any of my other rx'd drugs.
I get a very limited amt per month and I know very well I will go through hell if I run out, so it's strange. I don't start freaking out when I am running low on it like I do when low on my fentanyl or oxycodone ir.
Maybe it's bc I mainly take it for sleep and I don't take it every day. I don't know, for me it's something I have a hard time appreciating until I have none. Actually, no; it's when the wd's kick in almost exactly 3 days later that I realize how much I depend on it.
The cravings are all-consuming for me, too.
Weed. I shouldn't have finished what I had this morning. Weed is always better at night. I need to quit doing hard drugs so I can afford the soft ones.
Benzos and tramadol, tilidine or oxy. Gonna pick up a script later but the pharmacies will be closed by the time I have it.
I still ordered the tramadol for today at a 24hr pharmacy, and I'll pick up diazepam or lormetazepam tomorrow. Haven't made up my mind yet.
Tramadol, going to see doc in a bit so tomorrow I'll have my supply of tramadol, tildine, diazepam & lormetazepam. Picking up the tramadol right after I go see him though.
IV meth. Or rectal, but I really miss the rush you get from slamming meth. I won't though, I'm too lazy to go buy needles. Also I don't have meth... lol
my god am I craving meth. probably gonna buy a little sack in the next few days, if my dealer picks up his damn phone! hes always available on the weekends, so I shouldn't have any problem picking up this weekend.