What am I in for? What have I done.. ughhhh

[ryanrhino]

Well long story short have been sick for over a year even with pain medication. Have found out opiates in general are screwing with my pitutary and causing adrenal insufficency and like alot of us my testerone didn't went from around 550 to barely over 100. I was on 40mg methadone and 4 8mg hydromorphones a day. I got down to 25mg methadone then to 30mg oxycotin and 24mg hydromorphone's a day. Today I started to drop even more going to 8 10/325 hydrocodone's and 30mg oxycotin. I found my last test for adrenal function is starting to work again so I have to get off the opiates. I never abused my meds but that doesn't seem to matter other then the doctors use the word "dependant" instead of addicted. All I know is my body could care less it feels like hell just the same Anyone know of a better taper or should I just bite the bullet and cold turkey? If I do cold turkey what kind of hell and for how long will it take? I've been off the methadone and on the 30mg oxycotin for 17days now. The Dr. Thinks I'm still have issues from methadone due to the extremely long half life.
Any words of wisdom or just a I feel for you would be nice cause I feel like a emotional wreck. I frick'N hallmark commercial will bring me to tears. I'm a 200lb guy and feel like a 10 year girl

 

[herbavore]

Hey, Ryan, glad you started this--you will be getting a lot of support from those with experience over the next couple of days.I lack experience with what you are going through but I don't lack sympathy. (And crying is good for you whether you are a 10 year old girl or a 200 lb. guy, so relax about that and cry it out!) Welcome to the forum.

 

[Missykins]

Sounds like you and your doctor are working together to taper you off the opiates that have been prescribed to you. I would continue to work with your doctor, being certain to express any concerns you may have. Methadone does have a long half-life. If you feel like you're being tapered too quickly, then I would tell your physician.

 

[Miss Kirsty]

Herby would this be better answered in OD? Tripman,tricomb,toothpaste and madog11 and albion and muvolution, Zneg and the rest of the lovlies in OD, they would give him a taper for sure... OR Ryan, you could ask this question over in OD for more expertise on all things opioid...Sorry, i will point out that OD is indeed "Other Drugs" a section of this forum that can be found here Ryan...

http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/forums/58-Other-Drugs

Op i dont think you should cold turkey...I have done it several times and wouldnt wish it on my worst enemy!..
I can do you a taper if you like but i have suggested other people who have more knowlege on your drugs than i do...I am in Australia so i will let someone from the States answer this to a more descriptive level...Good luck OP...I really wish you the best...

Also I have tapered on methadone for the last few months and ive gone from 115mg a day to 75mg now...Tomorrow i drop another 5mg..to 70mg...Ive been dropping 5 mg whenever i say i want to...You can get you Dr to write your script so that you can always climb up a bit again if you go to fast....Get what i mean OP?

Crying is cleansing dude!

 

[harlans]

sorry you feel so down, but i wish we could all feel like 10yr old girls. i've never been as happy or unfettered since then. before boobs, boobs, and general misery

 

[ryanrhino]

Thanks everyone

Thanks everyone, I'll post in OD section. I think the worst part of this and a taper is that even when I was at my full dose I began to get sick due to pitutary. There is very little relief in upping my dose but even worse cutting my dose. I know it's not a fullblown withdrawl would be worse but it just seems to last forever since there is no relief regardless of the dose's. It's been a year of not being able to eat and crushing fatigue. I seriously curse the day I took my first opiate. I realize now I can hand the pain but the mental anguish is stealing my soul.
Thank you everyone for you posts