yeah so this thing gets a lot of use huh? hahaha
well I'm bored at the moment, and the lounge is slow as fuck since the recent purge of all the fun people. so I guess I'll post here.
well I tried the whole counseling thing, didn't really work out for me. I think I just need to find a steady supply of suboxone and quit on my own time. cause that place was bullshit. I've been out of work now for a long time and shit it gets depressing after about 2 months, you run out of money and you're constantly borrowing from people or doing whatever you can to get a few fucking dollars. plus having a heroin habit doesn't help in the slightest. I've calmed down quite a bit with it, down to ~1 or 2 pills at the most a day. only because I can't afford more, but whatever take it as it is. I hate being sick, but doing something shitty to get well doesn't feel much better. ugh, this is why I hate this addiction shit so much. its fun up until this point. every time I quit I get to the point you know 2 or 3 months clean and you're bored and you've got some cash. so I get high. and I'm like oh fuck yeah I remember why I liked this shit so much! then I get back into the cycle and 2 or 3 months later I'm here. out of money, sick every day except for maybe 10 hours when I scrounge up 15 bucks for gas and a dope and usually its not even that long cause the shit lately hasn't been good at all. god damn life sucks sometimes....
but enough about me. oh wait... this is all about me.... well I'm done then. if you've read this, hope you enjoyed it and if you don't use heroin. don't start, for serious.
well I'm bored at the moment, and the lounge is slow as fuck since the recent purge of all the fun people. so I guess I'll post here.
well I tried the whole counseling thing, didn't really work out for me. I think I just need to find a steady supply of suboxone and quit on my own time. cause that place was bullshit. I've been out of work now for a long time and shit it gets depressing after about 2 months, you run out of money and you're constantly borrowing from people or doing whatever you can to get a few fucking dollars. plus having a heroin habit doesn't help in the slightest. I've calmed down quite a bit with it, down to ~1 or 2 pills at the most a day. only because I can't afford more, but whatever take it as it is. I hate being sick, but doing something shitty to get well doesn't feel much better. ugh, this is why I hate this addiction shit so much. its fun up until this point. every time I quit I get to the point you know 2 or 3 months clean and you're bored and you've got some cash. so I get high. and I'm like oh fuck yeah I remember why I liked this shit so much! then I get back into the cycle and 2 or 3 months later I'm here. out of money, sick every day except for maybe 10 hours when I scrounge up 15 bucks for gas and a dope and usually its not even that long cause the shit lately hasn't been good at all. god damn life sucks sometimes....
but enough about me. oh wait... this is all about me.... well I'm done then. if you've read this, hope you enjoyed it and if you don't use heroin. don't start, for serious.
Hang in there.
