was clean from dope for awhile n had even managed to stay clean from everything there for a decent bit of time
was standin in my garage/driveway smokin some bud, as i finished my mom n sister rolled up n there was this rabbit who was kinda headin towards me before the rolled up but stopped when they arrived, he stopped in the street/neighboors yard they stayed n tried to coaxe him into comin closer but he wouldnt, they walked in n i stayed just standin there n was kinda payin attention to him but kinda not, then he came within bout a foot of me n just stayed at might feet n looked up at me directly into my eyes n just starred me down for a legit 2-4 mins, n the whole time im thinkin holy shit this is crazy, he was so close n was soo concentrated on me, then he kinda walked off n as he was leaving he stopped stood up turned his head around so he was lookin back at me n it was like that well are you comin sort of look. this whole ordeal just had me absolutely freaked out it was soo powerful, n at the time i didnt know what to make of it n i didnt know what it meant or what to think but it impacted me alot that night i remember cryin bout it just over the sheer intensity of the situation
lookin back on it i still dunno what it means but for awhile i started lookin into spirit animals n stuff
in retrospect i think it is easy for me to look back on it n think that i was clean n tryin to get clean n stay clean n be clean n even tho i was only smokin a little pot it was like " well you goin back down the rabbit hole or arent you"
but i really dont know what it was all about but it was certainly very out of the ordinary n quite unusual n for me it was very powerful n humbling but yea thats definately up there with wierd things ive seen or experienced n ive seen some shit in my limited time on this earth
oh yea and another that stands out is i seen a guy down by my old dope spot who litterally had his guts in a plastic shopping bag asking for ten dollars so he could go to the hospital 8) dude just wanted money to get high as it was obvious his intestines had been in that bag for awhile n he had no intention of getting medical help anytime soon, or atleast wasnt gonna seek medical attention with my 10$ he was after (didnt help him out cuz i didnt have any cash for him), but ill never forget how taken back i was at the sight of this dude and by his whole attitude/approach about the situation, he didnt care, he used his horrendous situation as a means of making money n was just such a junkie but was obviously goin thru so much suffering that it was just such a sight, like part of me wanted to take him to the hospital right then n there n do anything i could to help the man and the other part of me was just thinkin what a wreck cuz he looks like he should prob be dying any day now yet he is just chillin around the trap house askin for money so he can stay high to pass the time, rid himself of the misery n kill the pain til death comes callin