Mental Health Weird sleep talking issue - reoccurring themes and such

[RobotRipping]

I've developed this insane talent to talk and hold conversations while still dreaming or asleep. It's so completely messed up but each night i am getting better and better at it. I can wake myself up at will pretty much as well. But sometimes it scares the living shit out of me as well and goes night terror style. ATM there's no reason for this kind of stuff to happen in terms of medications but it's occurring so damn frequently.

Lately i've been screaming, crying, screaming out in pain and fear and wake up so shaken. WTF is bothering me so badly??? i can't even think of anything but one theme just keeps popping up over and over and over again.

This girl from university i was friends with for years, well friends with her ex-bf and her. Basically i love her, i feel some deep connection to her, i've stared into her eyes and felt like i knew her better than anyone i've ever known. She's confided in me so many secrets. It's all romantic in my dreams, and we had a few strange moments in University that were purely romantic as well. I do have a long term girlfriend though and this girl is just way way way out of my league and i haven't talked to her in years now so wtf, why can i not get her out of my head? i don't think i really love her but it's not lust or anything either. I feel deeply connected to her, from the first time i saw her.

I ended up in that state between waking and dreaming, the void i call it and i spun energy around and around and directed a massive energy at her, which i know will likely do nothing but shit i don't know why i feel so strongly about someone who i haven't even seen in years. Why do i feel like i've known her through lifetimes?

anyway, about the dream talking, anyone else do this? like i can seriously carry on a conversation but my words are really slurred so i sound like i am deaf (no offense to anyone) but if i muster up enough energy and take my time i can have full conversations. Usually i just get my gf to wake me up but now i just roll myself out of the dream but it's so damn disruptive to my sleep and i'm going back to school this week.

TL;DR Anyone else consciously speak in their sleep? or speak through their subconscious to the conscious? if that makes any sense? what the hell is going on? i can't find any information about consciously doing it and getting better and better at it.

i don't expect anyone to analyze my dreams but i get the feeling it's somehow connected. I'm going to get a sleep study done just to blow those fuckers studying me away; it's getting seriously strange that i can carry on deep conversations, bring back messages from 'entities' or something that talk to me and things like that, astral projection, lucid dreams are all easy as hell to pull off. Isn't that a sign of narcolepsy? this shit always occurs in the first few hours of sleep.

and sorry if this is not entirely relevant but it's affecting my mental health and really fucking with my head. I'm often afraid to go back to sleep afterwards and this happens 4-5x per week if not 2-3x per night sometimes.

 

[rickolasnice]

Who are you talking to? What are you saying?

What are you dreaming about?

 

[missmeyet?]

I'm not quite sure what exactly you mean about carrying on lucid conversations...and that your voicce is slurred. Do you mean you are dreaming and talking out loud but to yourself and you can hear yourself talking and remember it when you wake?

Also, there was a guy from many many years ago that I kinda had same deal with, some romance in real life but I haven't seen him in like 10 years (or had any type of contact..don't even know where he is). I don't even think of him a lot until have a dream about him. I have periods of time where I may dream about him every night for a week and then I may go months without dreaming of him again. They are very vivid much more so than my usual dreams. I always remember most of them and sometimes they are connected, even months apart. I frequently wake up with my face wet from crying of extremely happy, a feeling that lasts for days from it sometimes. At times they are about mudane events (never things that happened in real life..all new experiences) sometimes about major things, ie...taking a trip together, living together etc. After these dreams go on I may think of him a lot while awake for a week or two...a lot. Then not again for 6 months or so. This has went on about him on and off for years. Not sure what the connection is..always feels like it is leading to something important. But I have had a lifetime of ,....well...life since I have actually had any contact with him IRL...but I always wonder why?

On a different note..I mainly talk out loud and carry on when I am extremely tired or stressed for days on end. Usually if I talk out loud in my sleep (I'm usually not aware of it...it is someone else who tells me about it) it tends to be angry...pissed off.

 

[RobotRipping]

^yes i can but i can speak to my girlfriend, hear her and talk to her as well to verify. isn't that messed up? lol I know i am dreaming or in sleep paralysis. It's taken a lot of practice to be able to talk though, i used to let out small sounds and squeaks to get my girlfriend to wake me but now i can flat out carry on a conversation while asleep, even an intelligent one though it is hard to speak and takes quite a bit of effort.

sometimes i burst out laughing when i realize i am talking out loud in my sleep and can hear my own voice then my girlfriend is telling me to be quiet haha usually though i just tell my girlfriend to wake me up but my speech is slurred so i have to repeat myself a few times and it's hard to wake her up in the first place but eventually i either get so loud i wake my own self up or just roll myself out of the sleep paralysis and just wake up.

and about the dreams - they seem so damn surreal, i don't know what it is about this girl, kind of makes me feel guilty with my current girlfriend but unless somehow the forces of nature bring that girl to me, nothing will ever happen. I wake up kinda sad after those dreams though. I just don't understand, why her? even after all this time.

I am generally talking to my girlfriend beside me telling her to wake me up and get me out of sleep paralysis. This time though i got a message about reading page 16-11 which was fucking weird, it came from some entity when i was in sleep paralysis. Of course i'm not ruling out the fact i may be going completely insane/am insane already but really i just have a pretty open mind.

generally when i am screaming out/crying in my dreams it's because i am stuck in the void and can't get out without someone waking me up, it's essentially a place of nothingness. It's the exact place you go to on a high dose 5-meo-dmt trip which i find odd. However if i am actually in a dream, it's usually one involving this girl or i am just lucid dreaming.

 

[rickolasnice]

Yeah it's not that uncommon..\

Sometimes my girlfriend will talk in her sleep and then when i talk to her she'll start replying.. it's normally simple things but sometimes she'll say really random things like: uh huh! we need to find the golden coat! (replying to me asking if she was ok)..

And crying out when stuck in that dream state sleep paralysis is common.. I often realise i'm dreaming and can't wake up (sometimes i will awake but then start the same dream over.. it's kinda cool but very frustrating / scary sometimes, too) and so scream because i know that when i scream in my dream i make an audible scared noise in the real world.. I've never actually tried talking when in this dream / wake state but I bet that'd work too.

Sounds like you aren't falling into a proper deep sleep or perhaps the night terrors are stopping you / bringing you out from it.

From what you've said the girl has nothing to do with the sleep paralysis / talking?

Have you started sleeping on your back more recently?