Im a newbie here but i need help. Ive been on methadone 10s 3 x daily 4 leg pain & my Dr recently refered me 2 a neurologist 2 find out if my leg pain is nerve pain. Had my neuro appt on wensday & that Dr put me on Lamictal. She had offered 2 other meds, lyrica & topamax but i asked 4 the least evasive 1. Im on day 5 now & if this is the easy 1, i sure as hell dont wana take either of the other 2. I didnt take my methadone 4 the 1st 3 days 2 see if this Lamictal was working but it wasnt & now Im doubling up my dose on methadone & its not working. It feels like the Lamictal is blocking the effects of my pain meds. This med isnt even a pain med. Its perscribed 4 bipolar disorders. On top of it rendering my pain meds ineffective, I think its making my leg pain worse. Im also having scary urges 2 hurt myself. I want 2 bite my arms & pull out my hair. Im thinking about suicide but i dont feel depressed or suicidal. The idea of killing myself feels good. Im having these manic episodes & anything my kids say or do enrages me. I have an itch all over my body but so unlike that normal opiate itch. It feels internal. I just dont feel right in my own body. I want 2 stop taking but scared of what mite happen. Cant talk 2 either Dr til tuesday. Im mad cus the neuro dr. was insistant on me taking these even thou i told her i was content taking my dones til the results of my MRI came bak. she rudely criticized narcotic pain meds & lectured me on how they dont realy stop pain. they just make u forget the pain. i call b.s on that. im mad that im in worse pain then b4, getting no relief, & i feel like fuckin' jeffrey dalmer. Has anyone out there had this experience b4? This med is 2 b titrated up from 25mgs 2 100mgs in a month & considered a theraputic dose but I dont think i can go thru w/ this. Its making me afraid of myself. Should I just go 2 the e.r & tell them?
