weird post depression emptiness.

[hexagram]

This might sound really weird, but I realized on paper, I feel a lot better today.

I don't feel like I'm drowning in despair and misery anymore. In fact, I'm listening to sad songs, and I just don't really feel anything. Before, when I had just given up and was drinking constantly, I would feel every single note to the depths of my soul. There was something so human about my suffering. And now I don't feel as sad, but, and this is going to sound strange, I sort of miss being that low. Now, I just sort of feel empty and lethargic. Maybe this is a stage of recovery, before you can really begin to move on? I'm not sure.

 

[mrflowers00]

i can totally relate to the desire to feel low once you've been there long enough it's comforting

 

[spork]

When we're depressed for such a long time and start feeling better it's a new feeling. I felt the same as you when I started to feel better. I was so used to being depressed and other feelings just felt out of my comfort zone. I think it's a normal part of recovery, it is still something you might want to bring up to your doctor though.

 

[Eveleivibe]

Hexa this is understandable. You are going through change n we don't like change even with feelings. We're all here for you n it's good that you are talking things through.
Also when we try to stop an addiction we feel emptiness I know I did after codeine.
Please take care of yourself.
Evey xxxx