So it was my first time trying acid, I did 1/2 tab of what was supposedly 120ug. I was at a friend's house, the day was beautiful, setting was perfect. I'm not going to describe the experience, I'll just list the things I felt. I cut the piece of paper in half and put it under my tongue at about 2:10pm. The effects kicked in at about 3:30pm and and lasted until around 12am. It was basicaly:
jitteriness
anxiety
anguish
purge, like I had something inside my chest that I needed to expel - this led to an urge to cry or vomit, but I couldn't do neither
shivers
body tremors
depression
chest tightness
tingling
cold
No euphoria, no happiness, no empathy, no visuals, no colors, no patterns, no walls breathing. Just unpleasant feelings.
It was terrible. I didn't feel ANYTHING good at all. If I had this symptoms when sober my first thought would have been "I don't feel so good".
During the entire time I was just trying to keep myself calm and be ok with whatever I was experiencing. I mean, it was very easy to let myself be consumed by these sensations and freak out. I had clonazepam, it was so tempting to take a few drops to make myself feel better, but I felt like I needed to go through this. I think I should have gone for the whole tab.
I would like to see this as a VERY intense therapy session.
That's me during the peak.
What the fuck was that??
I had a panic attack on weed the first time I used it about 6 years ago, because I fed the unpleasant symptoms and then everything went downhill. Full blown panic attack.
Will I ever be able to enjoy the good sides of psychedelics??
jitteriness
anxiety
anguish
purge, like I had something inside my chest that I needed to expel - this led to an urge to cry or vomit, but I couldn't do neither
shivers
body tremors
depression
chest tightness
tingling
cold
No euphoria, no happiness, no empathy, no visuals, no colors, no patterns, no walls breathing. Just unpleasant feelings.
It was terrible. I didn't feel ANYTHING good at all. If I had this symptoms when sober my first thought would have been "I don't feel so good".
During the entire time I was just trying to keep myself calm and be ok with whatever I was experiencing. I mean, it was very easy to let myself be consumed by these sensations and freak out. I had clonazepam, it was so tempting to take a few drops to make myself feel better, but I felt like I needed to go through this. I think I should have gone for the whole tab.
I would like to see this as a VERY intense therapy session.
That's me during the peak.
What the fuck was that??
I had a panic attack on weed the first time I used it about 6 years ago, because I fed the unpleasant symptoms and then everything went downhill. Full blown panic attack.
Will I ever be able to enjoy the good sides of psychedelics??