Pallyress
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I'm on prescribed Vyvanse, so to be safe the two times (including this) I've rolled on mdma, I've let the vyvanse wear s bit off before rolling.
The previous time I didn't feel much effect, and no extacy. I had beed starving (bad ptsd, cannot eat when I'm feeling to shit about it all), which basically made my neurotransmitters so low that it was hardly anything for the mdma to work with. I actually got a boost a bit later during the roll when I was able to drink some smoothis.
Today was the same stuff, no extacy. But while waiting for thr mdma to take effect I surfed about brain chemistry, including mdma, vyvanse, etc.
Basically, when I dont take my meds (to roll safe), my dopamine level falls to such a degree that the mdma don't get them up enough for extacy. Mdma without dopamine is just calm and nice (or emotional and shit with ptsd raging). Im so messed up emotionally that I cannot feel it all without mdma.
Anyway, realising that I dashed over to the drawer and took my meds, an an hour later I was feeling pretty good. I also did othet things to increase dopamine: smoking a cigarette (nicotine makes one more sensitive to dopamine, according to one person posting on a internet forum which I read about 2 hours ago)
I also started masterbating, as I reconed that also would increase dopamine levels.
It worked! Not able to come for shit, but an hour after vyvanse (2hours aftet mdma) I was having a mild extacy wave. Startrd feeling warm, that wasnt really noticeable earlier.
The only responsible thing was ro redose. Woohoo! Smoking cigarettes and waiting.
So... I'm not on a big dose of vyvanse, and taking it regularly every day kind to stop before rolling lind of fucks it all up. It's way different than recreational use, however it is not necessarily safe for everyone else (this is not an advice from your doctor, im not even a nurse or a social worker!)
Also, background: depressed (trauma trigger last week sent me from ok to not eating, sleeping or doing anything from one day to another) , and next week im going to ask for ssri. Which kind of sucks, cuz I'll miss mdma. But better to function every day than to roll awesomely one a month (facing ptsd and meditate, it kind of sucks but I get better afterwards when I'm able to work som of that shit out in a healing eay).
Pussy wants out, but she's gonna fet xuddles now.
I'm really lonely. Cant stomach body contact or anybody flirting with me. I need a mommy or a daddy. Or a friend who just act like my parent. I'm not able to take care of myself when the shit is so deep. *sniff*
Ooo, redosing kicking in. Gonna jump back in bed and feel my skin. I move myself so much, mdma helps me remember it.
Oo, tonights menu:
137 mg mdma (tested)
30 mg vyvanse (prescribed, so basically status quo)
Redose avfter 2 hours: 57 mg mdma
I need cuddles. Please say you love me. Smoooch.
Edit
mg, did the worst mistake: was trying to say it is NOT necessarily safe for people to mix vyvase/stimulants with mdma
The previous time I didn't feel much effect, and no extacy. I had beed starving (bad ptsd, cannot eat when I'm feeling to shit about it all), which basically made my neurotransmitters so low that it was hardly anything for the mdma to work with. I actually got a boost a bit later during the roll when I was able to drink some smoothis.
Today was the same stuff, no extacy. But while waiting for thr mdma to take effect I surfed about brain chemistry, including mdma, vyvanse, etc.
Basically, when I dont take my meds (to roll safe), my dopamine level falls to such a degree that the mdma don't get them up enough for extacy. Mdma without dopamine is just calm and nice (or emotional and shit with ptsd raging). Im so messed up emotionally that I cannot feel it all without mdma.
Anyway, realising that I dashed over to the drawer and took my meds, an an hour later I was feeling pretty good. I also did othet things to increase dopamine: smoking a cigarette (nicotine makes one more sensitive to dopamine, according to one person posting on a internet forum which I read about 2 hours ago)
I also started masterbating, as I reconed that also would increase dopamine levels.
It worked! Not able to come for shit, but an hour after vyvanse (2hours aftet mdma) I was having a mild extacy wave. Startrd feeling warm, that wasnt really noticeable earlier.
The only responsible thing was ro redose. Woohoo! Smoking cigarettes and waiting.
So... I'm not on a big dose of vyvanse, and taking it regularly every day kind to stop before rolling lind of fucks it all up. It's way different than recreational use, however it is not necessarily safe for everyone else (this is not an advice from your doctor, im not even a nurse or a social worker!)
Also, background: depressed (trauma trigger last week sent me from ok to not eating, sleeping or doing anything from one day to another) , and next week im going to ask for ssri. Which kind of sucks, cuz I'll miss mdma. But better to function every day than to roll awesomely one a month (facing ptsd and meditate, it kind of sucks but I get better afterwards when I'm able to work som of that shit out in a healing eay).
Pussy wants out, but she's gonna fet xuddles now.
I'm really lonely. Cant stomach body contact or anybody flirting with me. I need a mommy or a daddy. Or a friend who just act like my parent. I'm not able to take care of myself when the shit is so deep. *sniff*
Ooo, redosing kicking in. Gonna jump back in bed and feel my skin. I move myself so much, mdma helps me remember it.
Oo, tonights menu:
137 mg mdma (tested)
30 mg vyvanse (prescribed, so basically status quo)
Redose avfter 2 hours: 57 mg mdma
I need cuddles. Please say you love me. Smoooch.
Edit
mg, did the worst mistake: was trying to say it is NOT necessarily safe for people to mix vyvase/stimulants with mdma
